I can't let you know that you form a part of me

Let me summarize my day.
Went to school.
Presented.
Went for training.
Home-d.

HAHAHA.
Let's skip with the school stuff cause it's dead boring.

Met Sheryl and co at W4. Slacked, talked and watch them eat.
Went to agora and got ready for training.
(Okay, I realise this part is boring.)
Anyways, we started doing drills. I was helping Sheryl
to cut down on her vulgarites cause if we're on court and
we spit any vulgarities then its 2 mins for us man.
So everytime she say any vulgarities, I'll make her slap
her mouth. Her slap like nowhere near hit la. Hahaha.

Then I told her that we could use N's name to cure our
swearing habits. Hahaha. At first, me and Sheryl were the
only one doing it. But don't know how come, Rigel and all
will start calling me N----!? I think I keep calling Sheryl
that name until she got so irritated. N's name is like
our vulgarity and random word la. Hahaha.
But Sheryl like la. I KNOW. HAHAH.

Went to eat with them and I was so tired at macs.
My eyes can hardly open man. Lack of sleep for the
past two days. Luckily, there's no training tomorrow
and I can sleep as long as I want!
My knees are hurting. There's this white thingy growing out.
It hurts like N man! HAHAH. Told you the name is a swearing name.
HAHAHA.

Shit, there are so many bumps on my knees.
Joreen! How come will like that!? Only my right knee
lei. Shit man. Disease. I'm gonna die, now.
HOW!?
And I don't know how those bruises come about on my leg?
There's protection but still got bruises.
Someone must have hate my right leg a lot.
All the injuries on that leg. N la! HAHA.

I'm really tired now and my eyebags weigh a ton.
I'm feeling emo now. As in I'm not sad. Like
suddenly emo. Sial la. Natural emo-ness.

Anyways, thanks for the song Sheryl. It's the nicest!
:) I keep putting it on repeat. Wah, his voice is superb!
I'm falling in love with his voice. And hello, you got Punk'd again! :p

Look around, sometimes I stare
I think back now and then, I hope you know I care
I walked away that day, trying to treat you right
But you were on your track, it was me turning back, I left you freezing outside

Yours, K
11:36 PM

The last time I saw you, you were prasing me.
I was planning to visit you again some time
and see whether I can get my art piece at a cheaper price.
I just didn't make it in time to see you, to talk to you.
When I thought back of how I was such a bitch
talking back to you and heck caring my work, it pricked.

If only you knew how much your death
affected me. That is if only you know. I regret.
I always regret. When our late principal passed away, I regret.
I can never be the good student any teacher wanted.
I regret not putting in so much more effort for our A1.
Your hard work was more than enough but mine was halved.
I should have put more hard work into my work.

Now, it's too late for regret. I hope you know I'm typing this.
I hope you didn't think that anyone of us hate you.
You're the best. Although your temper can get really bad.
But it's okay. We learnt to tolerate your temper for 3 years.
It has become a habit that we can predict when you will flare.

Rest in peace.
In loving memory of, Mrs L.

Yours, K
9:22 PM

I'm sleepy and tired.
I'm tired and sleepy.
I'm sleepy, tired.
I'm tired, sleepy.
I wanna sleep cause I'm tired.

Kkkkk, I'm bored.
Hello everyone reading this! :)
I can't wait for friday because I can sleep until saturday
afternoon and wake up and sleep back and wake up.

I have something to look forward to, I've got dunkin' donuts!

Eh, K is happy already! No more emo me sial :)
Please be happy for me! Or you prefer the damn emo me?
Anyways, I wanna keep my hair in the emo way.
Those kind all to the side and will tickle your eyes.
Any comments?

K is happy, K is happy, K is happy.

I wanna move us like tango :)

Yours, K
3:48 PM

Today's training was enjoyable.
Although it was tiring but I find it so fun
and I feel myself as part of the Adriots family :)
Today was just super hilarious. The team members
are the funniest bunch of people off court.

I have more injuries than on friday. My right
hand has the shape of the ball, my left
hand has this long red line. Okay, nevermind.
My right knee has a bruise and a split cut and
my left knee has a bruise. When S shoot, her ball
hit my throat. Pain like anything man. Okay, nevermind.
Get used to it man. It's normal :(

I need to get contacts and a damn big bag.
I need it urgently. I'm gonna shop for that big
bag soon. Hopefully those tennis bags.
Okay, enough of trainings and bags.

There's a test tomorrow. I'm half prepared for it.
It just rained. Rained. Rained. Sigh.
Okay, gotta go off now! I need to wake up early.
I've got panda eyes now. Even uglier than what I am.

I miss your voice singing to me,
More than words and lips of an angel.
It was just last week you sang to me
and it feels like forever.
I can't keep myself strong without you,
it's time to come home baby. It's time.

Yours, K
12:51 AM

Create your own Friend Test here





Create your own Friend Test here

Yours, K
5:21 PM

001. Real name:
Lim Kar Mun.

002. Nickname:
Fatty?

003. Are you married:
No.

004. Horoscope:
Scorpio.

005. Male or female:
A mixture of both.

006. Elementary:
Soka kindergarten.

007. Middle:
St. Margarets.

008. Highschool:
St Margarets.

010. Hair color:
Black with a tad of brown.

011. Long or short:
Middle.

015. Are you a health freak:
I think so.

016. Height:
Middle.

017. Do you have a crush on someone:
Should be.

018. Do you like yourself:
Sometimes.

019. Piercings:
Ears. I want one on the lip.

020. Tattoos:
None but soon.

021. Righty or lefty:
Righty.


FIRSTS:

022. First surgery:
I can't remember when but it was
when Rocky bit me in the eye. Not exactly
a surgery. Stitching.

023. First piercing:
Around 5 years old.

24. First best friend:
Huang Shu Wen

025. First award received in:
Good progress award. Primary six!

26. First sport you joined:
Netball.

027. First pet:
Hamster.

028. First vacation:
Malaysia.

029. First concert:
Some school band concert.

030. First crush in:
Primary three!

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating:
Nothing.

050. Drinking:
Nothing.

052. I'm about to:
Continuing answering all these questions.

055. Waiting for:
Someone's message.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids:
Of course.

059. Want to get married:
Definitely.

060. Careers in mind:
Events coordinator.

068. Lips or eyes:
Lips.

069. Hugs or kisses:
Kisses.

070. Shorter or taller:
Depends on which sex.

072. Romantic or spontaneous:
Romantic.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Both?

074. Sensitive or loud:
Sensitive.

075. Hook-up or relationship:
Relationship.

-Where's 76!?

077. Trouble-maker or hesitant:
None.

HAVE YOU EVER:

078. Kissed a stranger:
No.

079. Drank bubbles:
APA?

080. Lost glasses/contacts:
Yes.

081. Ran away from home:
Was about to.

084. Broken someone's heart:
Yes.

085. Been arrested:
No.

086. Turned someone down:
Yes.

087. Cried when someone died:
Of course!

088. Liked a friend:
Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself:
Sometimes.

090. Miracles:
I don't know.

091. Love at first sight:
No.

092. Heaven:
Maybe.

093. Santa claus:
No.

094. Sex on first date:
No.

096. Angel:
No.

097. Ghost :
Maybe.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

098. Is there one person you want tobe with right now?:
YES. I MISS HER. Sigh.

099. Had more than oneboyfriend/girlfriend at one time?:
Never.

100. Do you believe in God?:
No.

101. Will you post this as "101Truths"?:
Why not?

Yours, K
12:48 AM

How not to think likewise when you featured her?
It's like saying there isn't anything but showing me
there is something. Saying you are not close but
showing you are by featuring her.
Then why would you feature her? No other reasons
than getting closer aint it?

Yours, K
2:18 AM

WHY ARE MY GOOD FRIENDS ALL FAILING MY TEST!?
Is my test that difficult? The highest is only 50!?
Try to think of me as more hardworking and guai-er.
Then maybe you'll pass even higher marks. HAHAH.
Please know I'm quite lame too. So.... hinted already!
I can't give anymore hints. Too obvious.
Think of me different, think of me as someone who
REGRETED once. Hint to the maximum already.

Yours, K
12:43 AM

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Yours, K
10:46 AM

This is my perfect way of ending it.

Remember,
stab, twist and stab.
That's how I'm feeling.

Yours, K
10:08 AM

Don't act like you're fucking affected.
You're not. Totally not.

Yours, K
7:34 PM

Totally ignoring me for her.
See, I'm not wrong. You proved me right.

Yours, K
4:31 PM

Who do you belong?
The answer is clearly obvious.

I see your name appearing around them.
It's, as usual.

Yours, K
12:55 AM

I don't believe what you said in that paragraph.

Yours, K
10:37 AM

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Bloody hell,
When I'm missing you - A1
My Ipod is playing a joke on me man.
Okay, I'm gonna go off and be emo and stare out
at the window and smoke and cry and.....
laugh. HAHAHAHEHEHAHAHAI.
Crazy.

And I know its late but I'm waiting,
For the moment that I've been anticipating.
And I signal u to go where it will take us, I don't know

那一天的我们，我会微笑的很久。

Yours, K
4:38 PM

Hello faithful readers! (If I have any)
I was so damn tired today so I managed to drag
myself outta bed at about twelve plus going one.
Nad was damn tired too. She kept sleeping back
and she was hell cold. When she touched me with her
hands I was like "Okay! I'm giving you the blanket!"

Anyways, we left house at like... I can't remember la.
Cabbed down to Boon Keng to meet my dearest whiniest JAC.
Then cabbed to Tpy. Went to EAT Long Johns.
I gave my chicken to Nad. I felt so happy when I gave it to her
because I really feel so full and bloated.
Head back to bugis to meet kerrie cause she text me and asked
whether I wanna go with her to alter jeans. I can only collect it
tomorrow. Tskt, THE UNCLE LA! Okay, nevermind.

Then went back to bugis junction to visit sab, left after a while.
Head down to Vivo to meet Cherisa. Talked for quite a bit and
left to meet mum! ATE at Crystal Jade (CJ), I was craving for XLB
so badly and when I finally reached CJ... It was the moscow
one not the chinese one! I ATE until I nearly puked all that I ate.
I still feel so damn bloated now. Me and mum went to shop for
father's day gift. Bought him a timberland wallet.
It was 99$! I paid for it and went to shop for my own.
Bought Everlast sneakers, it was damn cheap la and bought
this pullover. SUPER CHEAP.

(Pictures another day!)

I sound damn happy in my entry right?
No, today is my emo day. It's one of the bad emo days.
Listening to songs that actually make my heart ached.
Walao, cliche lei. Hahaha.
Sigh. I'm very depressed now!
I can literally feel the pain, that itch, that stab in my heart.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
K is very very depressed/sad/wanna cry/whatever.
Please try your outmost best to make her happy.

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Okay, I really feel like crying. If I talk to you online and
I'm haha-ing, don't believe it. Hahahah.

我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你。

Yours, K
10:34 PM

Guess what? Training wasn't that bad, I mean
it was dead tiring but it wasn't as bad as I thought it
would be. But for a moment I nearly cried while doing the
drills. I felt that I couldn't be as good as the others.
One word, STRESS.
Then when it comes to playing against Meridien JC, I
felt so much better. I was told by the seniors to play rough.
Okay, so rough I go! Hahaha.
Training on Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
Wednesday having friendly with Team Singapore or some
Singapore club. Along that line.

That's very long about training huh. Hahaha.
Went to eat with Emily at causeway point. OMG!
EAT.. KFC SOMEMORE. Okay, tomorrow cannot eat.
I've already eat tomorrow's share. Sigh. I'm a glutton!

My feet damn itchy. Must be the shoes. No wait, must be
some insect. Maybe my leg is smelly. No lei, quite nice smelling.
HAHAHAHHEHEHAHAI.
Gaya was saying I'm the epitome of Emo. I was like yah, true.
Know why? Look at the crazy laughter. Check the last three words.
HAI = Sigh = Sad = Emo
SEE SEE! Tskt....

Nad came over, she is here already. She's disturbing Sab.
As usual, Sab is THE pig and Nad is disturbing her.
Giving excuses that she need to wake up at nine.
I SLEEP AT 4AM AND WAKE UP AT NINE OKAY!
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Actually I'm damn lazy to blog but for J, I will.
For her to read since she comes my blog everyday as
claimed by her. Hahaha. She doesn't tag and she sucks
cause of that! J! You suck! You suck cock lick pussy!
HAHAHAHAHEHEHAHAI. Okay, I still love you :)

My fingers are getting tired from all that typing.
I'm gonna go off now and talk to Nad. Happy reading
this damn boring post. J, now you can read :)

You're my resolution

Yours, K
12:55 AM

Training in about two hours time.
I can and can't wait.
I can feel butterflies in my stomach.
Sigh.

I hope everything will turn out much better
than I thought. Will blog again once I am back
from training. That is if I have the energy to.
Hahahahaha. Yeap! See all of you soon :)

Yours, K
2:54 PM

Peektures!
(Just for the sake of it, sigh)

Let me present to you,
the most.......... Nevermind
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What are you looking at?! I'm an ah beng,
spam my blog and you die.. dieeeee!

Like I said, for the sake of posting pictures,


SARAH SAM!





Carry on....

Yours, K
11:12 PM

I think I am obssessed with myself. In a day,
I can read my entries over and over again.
I think one of my top website is my blog. Hahah.
Okay, after publishing this post I'm gonna read what I blogged.
HA.

Outing with En cancelled :(
D, I hope you can trust En. Even if you don't,
at least trust me. Cause she's my good friend
and nothing more. We're clean.

It's still early in the day so I think I might blog again.
That is if I have something to blog about.
I can literally feel myself rotting away and getting so
bored until I have to resort to sleeping or counting my
hours away to the next day.
Shit, there's training tomorrow and I haven't been going.
I bet my stamina dropped. Sigh. I'm sucha bummer.

Nad's staying over tomorrow, I haven't seen her for so long.
I'm glad we can catch up tomorrow. Let's hope she won't
fall asleep on me like what sab did yesterday! >:(
She falls asleep in a minute man...... Pig.

It's so wordy again.

Realise I didn't talk about babe?
Uh, well I just did but........ Nevermind.
I should really stop calling her babe, she said that
one more time I call her babe she's not gonna reply me!
Okay, no babe......






Silly, yeah! I shall call her silly cause she really is.
(See, can't control myself. Once I start, I never stops)

Something unexplainable

Yours, K
11:54 AM

After a long time, this is the second time i blog
again in a day. I think history will repeat itself again.
Why? Like I blog a lot this few days then I'll stop
completely again. As usual huh. HA.

Three weeks of bumming around at home and out,
it's time to go back to school. Time to face backstabbing,
quarrels amongst each other, politics and most importantly
the waking up part. The most difficult part of the whole process.
Know why? Because I sleep at five almost everyday and
wake up at nine to find myself staring blankly, realising I can't
sleep back anymore. I'm tired and I can't sleep. I think I can
go to the zoo and blend in with the pandas.
I can feel the weight of my eyebags adding on to my initial weight......
Sigh.

I'll be going out tomorrow with En again.
Because Gaya decided to be a good girl and study. (She should)
En told me to call/text her if I'm not going out with my Gaya.
This time we must take pictures, then I can make my post
a pictorial post instead of this. Isn't it wordy? Hahah.

Babe is doing her work/studying now.

I placed my black spiderman light chain near my phone.
I want to see the light lit up. I know it's kinda stupid,
because I can just make it on a sound mode or vib mode.
But I'm anticipating for her message and getting myself all excited.
For all I know, she's asleep already.
Well......

Shit, I ate a lot today.
- Cup noodles for lunch ( I didnt finished it)
- Some bento rice thingy for dinner

I told myself I can't eat after 6pm, (Yeah, I had dinner at 5pm)
but guess what........ I drank milk tea for supper!
I'm feeling the guilty pang now. I've been eating one meal per day
for two weeks and I totally just broke the cycle!
I think it helps, like the cup noodles.
Normally, I would just finished the whole thing. But today,
I don't have the appetite. Not only today but for the past
two weeks. I get hungry easily but not anymore. I don't have
the appetite for food anymore.
Like, one meal a day is enough but today....... UGH!

You're worth every single second of me

Yours, K
11:41 PM

I'm back to blogging! Everyone! I'm backkkk!!!

Anyways, I don't understand why babe must sleep so much.
She has been sleeping since this morning.
Doesn't she knows that I'm a bit deprived of talkin to her?
All she does is to sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep and sleep!

Wait, there's a possibility that she's lazy to call me, not
forgetting she might be eating.......
Stop doing whatever and call me now or at least text me and
tell me you're awake but you're still tired!

I've waited for very long and I'm getting impatient!
I called twice already and babe still hasn't pick up!
Babe doesn't like me to call her babe because she said
it's just not her. But I don't care! Babe, babe, babe.... BABE!

People! You know what!? Babe just called me!
She sounds damn tired and... SEXY. You know the
morning kinda voice. HAHAHAHAH.
Alright, I'm gonna talk to babe now while you people
get goosebumps reading this entry. HAHAHA.

Yours, K
5:44 PM

I'm bored, so I decided to blog.
I doubt anyone will know I've updated. HA.
At this time, I would have been hogging the phone
for hours talking to her but she's asleep now :(
Anyways, I changed my font color! Because I didn't want
it to look so emosified. HAHAHA.
Uh, but we shall see.

Anyways, like I said I didn't wanna town and I didn't
until two days back when I met up with En.
I'm not deaf! You speak too softly that I can hardly
make out what you were trying to say.
And I forgot to take a picture with you! :(
En, the next time we meet again we must take a picture okay?

Yesterday, I thought of her and started feeling depressed.
(Uh, see see! I start again!)
I thought of how she didn't liked me as a friend and
whether I was even her friend to start off with.
This feeling really sucks. I doubt she'll know its her
I'm talking about. She ain't close to me but... ohwells.
( I think emo is me, how!?)

I wish I could know what you are thinking.
The night's magic just vanished,
and I just want something familiar.

The difference kills

P.S I'm really lazy to reply tags.
P.P.S Don't give up on tagging me, I will reply newer ones :p

Yours, K
11:45 PM

I decided to delete the last post cause
I realised I didn't mean it at all.
I hope you haven't seen it. Please.

Patience is a virtue, so I'm gonna
cultivate that damned virtue.

But now, I'm not given a chance anymore am I?
Do you really can't be bothered?
Cause I bother.
Whatever la, not like you'll - me.
I can't find the word to suit that sentence.

Yes, I'm at fault.
Ame, you're right. I caused the hurt in her and me.
Sometimes I ought to shoot myself for taking advantage
of my friends.

Yours, K
1:00 PM

If anyone hasn't hate me enough,
please go to www.nicolechristineau.blogspot.com
to hate me more. Thank you.
No, I'm not blaming her. I want you guys to know
what kind of a person I am. I'm not shaming her,
I'm shaming myself. Ha.

The feeling of people treating me differently
because of what happened is just simply,
let's put it this way, unexplainable.
Cause people judge me, they judge me like they're
some judges for Sinagapore idol. HAHAHH! Lame.
Yeah yeah, because I'm Karmun, everything i do wrong,
be it something minor is wrong and hatable.
When I do something right/nice/whatever, nobody notice it
and that's because people have the mindset that
I'm already some bad person. Some emo shit that
blogs nothing but emo stuff. HAHAHA. I'm a emo kid.
Blahblahblahblahyadayadayadayada.
HAHAHAHAH. -_-

- said, it takes many years to build a friendship
but it takes only a day to crush it.
How true.

You left me memories to reminisce.
Thank you. That was the best present ever.
Don't take it back from me,
cause that is what I need most from you.

Yours, K
6:47 PM

Maybe when the time comes,
I'll be gone for good.
They say true love dies,
best friends last.
For me,
Both died.

Applause for me, for being suck a fuck.
I don't realise the consequences that I had caused.
But right now, things have gotten worse.
So it's time for me to be alone,
it's time for you to find some soul.
I can only watch from where I am.
As long as you're happy, I'm happy.
Hey, true love from me to you....
Never dies. If it makes you happier or makes
you hate me more by not talking to me.
I rather you. Cos you're too good for me,
I can't hurt you anymore. You had enough.
I was just being a selfish fuck.
I'm sorry Nicole, this isn't what I wanted.

She's the victim,
I'm the murderer.

Everyone, please hate me more than you do now.

Yours, K
3:50 AM