i went for jean's bbq farewell bbq tdy. 
im gonna miss jean like abcdefgh. she's so irritating. HAHAH.
then i started bbq-ing, as usual. my favourite! hehe.
so left at ard.. i cant rmb luh. haha. waited for a cab with the others so they
drop me off since its near my hse. skye called me and we talked until half an hour 
ago. it was quite funny luh. but for the first time she said she wntd t put
down cos she wntd t slp. wow. 

results are like coming out soon. im soooo nervous luh.
How? ):
die die die. but i hope i don fail or anyth luh. ill crrryyyy!

rmb how we used t spend most of our days tog and how we loved
each other so much. how i waited so long and how much effort i put in.
ive been hiding it for so long and too long hoping maybe you'll come back
but knowing you wont. i regret for doubting you and not trusting you.
seriously, if i can turn bac time ill wna treat you the best you've been treated.
we were never meant t be separated,
im just a phone call and a msg away. 
but you'll never know the pain you gave me.

and even though we moved on,
it gets so hard t walk away ):
ive tasted it too long.

I can't forget how we used to be our life
from day to day.
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't

Labels: impossible for you t love me

Yours, K
1:32 AM

just got back from elle's chalet. 
had fun and we laughed a lot.
was playing mouse (?) and we tricked skye tht behind her there was someone,
so when she turned ard she knocked her head into the plastic thing.
AND after tht hard knock, many knocks followed -_-
went bac t the chalet and majong-ed. taught skye how and she knda master it
rather fast. hahah. but still she knida gave up and elle took over then me.

before tht we cut cake for singh,kim and elle.
gave them the presents we got for them and we think tht singh like her's A LOT.
HAHAH. we gave them a pair of undies each. kim's ones was like don need t wear luh.
HAHAH. so anw, majong-ed till twelve plus and head home.
damn tired and my left side of the head is having headache.
ill post up pictures soon, once ame send over. HA. or u can jus go skye's
or ame's blog t see at a later time.
They're still at the chalet playin ' I NEVER'

st margs netballers against ijtp. I cant wait t hear the results. hope SM wins. Luck (:

I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

Labels: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGH, KIM AND PRINCESS ELLEFELIA

Yours, K
1:42 AM

Your call.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
 
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

will you let me take you away?

Labels: are you coming tonight?

Yours, K
11:05 PM

edit//

my grandmother woke me up tdy. i was super tired luh.
but i slept earlier. two nights back, i slept at five. i think my
sleeping hours are already irregular. ive been worrying excessively over my damned results.
pls, i wna pass. pleassseee!
so anyways, i found something t keep me occupied when im really bored and tht
is to watch dvds tht my mum borrowed. im currrently watching on a show called
revolving dors of vengeance. hong kong show. aye! people bored lei.

im like so lazy tdy and i ate so much tdy! omfg, so fat alr still wna eat some more.
im happy! cos im gonna have my sushi buffet with zan and maybe suat. yaye.
then after tht zan will accompany me to shopp. tht day i shopped i only bought one chain.
my dad was being super nice, he bought me a new bag. thanks dad. (:

i just dont understand why must you quarrel with me in every singel thing i say?
i know you know best but did i say i was right? yes, ure alwys right okay. you make decisions
without thinking whether it will hurt me. its was over like a really long time ago.
i konw ure getting used to it without me. im at fault too for scolding you fuck.
yeah, i dont have to get angry over small problems. but wht i wnt is not t have any
problems with you.

its gonna be 2 years since ive loved you. why are you with somebody else.
not tht you cant but i hate to see you with another person.
i dont want you loving another, i want you loving me.
the impossible will alwys be the impossible.

im gonna go down to buy fag.

Labels: hard to move on

Yours, K
11:06 PM

edit//

had a whole load of fun yesterday.
met FEL, keem, elle and keem elle's friend (singh)
AND MY CLIQUE.
walked to far east, went chippy's t buy my favourite TRIPLE C CHICKEN and we bought extra food.
stupid nicole ate up the extra food when i wntd to okay!
me and FEL were suppose to have food feast. but then talk walk and laugh until
it was late so we dint eat in the end. but it was damn funny with her.
and we kept singing the theme song for merci choco. stuck in our head okay!
super funny please! FEL is the best man, i love her! HAHAH.
all of us had lots of fun luh and we laugh a lot. hahah. 
i think FEL realy have a retarded face, it makes me laugh.

on the phone,

nic: im watching huan zhu gege now (my fair princess)
nic: wht is huan zhu gege in english?
spyke: its the something princess.
spyke: yeah, im quite sure its the something princess.
nic: you might as well say the return(huan) pearl(zhu) princess(gege)
spyke: might as well say the princess return pearl.
HAHAHAHAH.
fine. -_-

uploaded some more pictures:



Clique photo again, i know its nice (: YAYYE



the kiss was last min. i looked happy. HAHA.



far east subway. i love ame (:



nicole looks like she wnts to lick smtg, badly. HA.

Labels: 2 years of pain, 2 years of tears

Yours, K
5:18 PM

i cannot.
i must learn to take things in my stride.
i need to get over this obstacle.
i need t learn how t look at things at a brighter side.

i cannot love her anymore. it's been so long.
spyke, she've long gotten over you. give it up. you're nothing to her already.
tmr will be a better day. 
gimme a smile. (: 

Labels: will you love me back L?

Yours, K
11:45 PM

i miss my clique, although i just met up with skye and nic recently .
but still! i still miss the others . we should meet up soon okay? (:
im booked by FEL on saturday, so those who wna date me can wait for later. HAHAH.
like anyone wnts t date me ): yeah, maybe im having a eating date with miwong. see la.
(dont worry FEL, ill eat with you too!)
her clothes havent arrive yet. -_-  and you stupid fish, take a punch! YAY, i win! (:

sadly, today's the eighteen. i doubt you rmb its the date we started t know each other, since we havent been talking for so long. but im still gonna wish you, happy anniversary. i love you (:
my days havent been any better. i was awake at 2, as usual. then i was thinking whether
she'll be thinking of me. i doubt so la, we havent been talking. she would have alr forgotten me.
 i think i can do without a phone la. i sent less than 10 msges  today. hahah. my first msg was to
skye and last msg to miwong. 

i wnt t be happy, but it really seem so difficult. whn im out with my friends, im happy and ill tend t fgt wht happened. but after gg separate ways, ill rmb tht im still unhappy.
i think back and i realised i dont treasure wht i have until they're gone.
i really regret doing things i shouldnt have. i dint treasure every girl tht was with me. not until
when they leave me, then did i know tht i lost someone so dear to me. and i cant turn back time.
i so wish i can treat them much better than they desreved. i guess its all too late.
i cant be with anyone of them anymore, even if i wnt to they would not accept me agn.

okay, enough of all tht sad sad paragraphs.
i ought t be happy. im looking forward to this sat, so i can see FEL! i miss her so much la even
though she dosent -_- but its okay, i love her all the same (:
tmr's gonna be a better day, i gotta think like this everyday  (:
im currently hungry, i havent eat anything yet. HAHAH. surprised? WAHAHAH.

im gonna post a joke everyday, so whn anyone who reads my blog will laugh. like tht stupid
joke in the previous post. HAHAH. here goes:

A redhead, a brunette, and a blonde robbed a supermarket. As they were stealing, a police officer walked in the store and saw what was happening. He dashed toward them, but they were able to get away into the back of the store. There they found three sacks to hide in. When the police officer checked there, he examined each sack.

He kicks the first bag, and the redhead says "meow" in a high voice. The cop determines that it must only be a cat in that bag, and he moves on to the next.

When he kicks the second bag, the brunette says "woof" in a low voice. The officer determines that it must only be a dog in that bag, so he moves on to the last bag.

He kicks the third bag, and the blonde shouts "potato" to the officer.

Labels: its tearing apart, quit breaking my heart

Yours, K
9:32 PM

This is hilarious.even an Englishman could not construct sentences using numbers! Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 and 10. Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again back to 1. This was what he came up with. 1 day I go 2 climb up a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rush out and wanted to 5 with me. I run so fast until I fall 6 and throw up. So I go into 7 eleven and grab some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab him. 10 God he run away. So, I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 eleven. Next day, I call my boss and say I am 6 . He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asks me to climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand, I so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1 .

DAMM FUNNY right! hahah, rly make me laugh like shit okay. hahah.
and my fish jumped out of the tank. shocked me okay. like killing itself. maybe the
other fishes dont want to be friends so it commit suicide. i know its damm lame. HAHAH.
and my skye is heart broken, i wna make her feel better but i know i cant. cos im not her.
sorry baby. ): please, im not flirting with anyone skyeee. not kim. HAHAH.

i went to collect my laptop today and i swear the place is so fuckin far. all the way at jurong, at some remote place. my uncle sent me there on his bike. now i have doubts on whether i wna take a bike license. car better
right? hahah. but then again, im too short for a car. probably my back seat hafta be straight up! HAHA.
after tht i head home t fix my lappy. my cousin helped me and i found ut a new load of things i can learn fr him.
why must i crap so much? why? trophy ah? hahah.

i was sad,

i stumbled across 2 letters. i was wondring ah, like how come i never touch them before. i opened it
and it happened to be from HER. i dont think u get who im talkin abt.
when i read the contents of the letter, i smiled. cos the contents were damn sweet.
you'll alwys be mine and ill be yours. how i wish she stick to tht statement but i know she alr gave
it up long ago. i msged her at midnight and told her i was readin her letters, as usual there was no reply.
i guess im jus so used to it tht it dosent matter she reply or not.
i was partially upset because it reminded me of her. ): i guess she'll never know or maybe choose not to know.

i guess messaging me is not a must anymore right? i know ure alr used to me not being in yr life anymore.
i got the hint and im backing off. please don say u love me when you dont. cos i know those 3 words were
merely jus words. you dont mean them. trust me, you never did. seriously, im tired of being hurt in
the end. this is the heart wrenching story i endured for months and going.

tell me the torture is over.

Labels: i still love you

Yours, K
10:29 PM

OMG.
i swear she'so pretty la! when i saw her picture, i was happy like fuck.
she's really very pretty pls! but too bad la, she's my ex.
and we hardly talk, so fuck. because she was wearing suspenders,
it reminded me tht i was suppose t buy mine.
and yes, i've been whining to amelia how nice it is and how outstanding it is. HAHAH.
even amelia agrees with me. YAY.
another someone, she looked so different. she look kinda pregnant
but nevertheless, she looked sexy. (according to amelia)
should haf went right. i heard it was crowded like fuck.
perspire like a race during marathon. HAHAH.

went out ytd and watched Pan L. whatever it is.
damn funny la. the monster had eyes on his hands.

NICOLE: shit! the captain will find out mercedes is the spy
mercedes is one of the actress screen name
- spyke looks at nicole and gave her the 'uh' look
SPYKE: i dont think he will find out mercedes did it.
NICOLE: huh? why?
SPYKE: cause he will think toyota did it!
HAHAHA. its funny right!?
and it was funny because i gave her the serious look and she believed it.

you know phebe really look like orange, cos of her young photo.
at first i put up a convo of me and phebe but i decided to take it off cos
the toyota one was funnier. i want to drink phebe. (:
hahah!
and im eyeing on phebe. EYE BACK. HAHAH.

on the last note, i think she's hot.
damn hot, fuck.
AND phebe, i'll stop eyeing you if you get me orange juice.

Labels: HELP

Yours, K
4:29 PM

i'm back to blogging.
currently at SKYE'S hse BAKING cookies AGAIN.
cause someone will jus lie her way through like fuck.
you dont have to say sorry if you already done it,
cause its redundant. seriously.
and i doubt you'll read this post, so it doesnt matter.
ayer!

right.
i made one new friend. (T)
YAY. (:
and so, although i wanted to know you.
tht doesnt mean i like you.
jus because you look like my ex!
WHY WHY WHY?
HAHAH.

we're still waiting for ames to come,
she's takin forever i swear.
hurry come and bake cookies!
i want to eat!

let love go my way.
thank you.

Labels: hello, im back (:

Yours, K
4:19 PM