i don't wana be alone,
i don't want my heart t brk into pieces.
i just want t look at you.
i don't want you to see my tears my sadness,my hurt.
i don't want u to see my hurt,
bcus it'll never heal.
you'll be the one,
cos im in love with you.

just smile and i'll smile.
i want to be with you.
my love for you is strong and steady.
and it wil always be the same.
to you my love,please come to me.
and i'll give you all my love you need.

i will be with you no matter what happens.
i'll miss you when you're not with me,
but you'll always be close in my heart.
you're my life and,
i want to share the love with you.

when im lost,i hope u bring me back.
i want to be in your arms,to gaze at the stars in the sky above.
i know this is tough,bcus it was never meant to be.
but you must know tt i truly,deeply,sincerly....


LOVEYOU.

Yours, K
1:13 PM

i feel like tearin myself apart!i jus wna rip every part of me!
i cried okayys,i dono why but i did.so dumb i noe but i did u for YOU!and do u noe?
i doubt so.all u do is t say NO!and i hate tt damn word,tt word left so many scars in my
heart.and ure so cute,im tinkg of you now.yr stupid cute face,and im rly sry i keep askin.
read e email n u'll understand.tt is if u dun delete it la.

im waitin okkays,so if any time u change yr mind tel me.
ure alr my everything.n tts gd,cos nth is gna change e fact tt ure alr my everything (:

love; ` SPYKE

ilu PIG.

Yours, K
12:09 PM

im feelin so darn sad now. i dono why, probably what happened jux nw.

oh man, ss n eng exam is one FRIDAY! so nearr okayys! im gna be D.E.A.D
shits la. oh and i noe u mean it whn u ask me t fuck off, i will okayys.
and ppl, pls dun mind e tag. e were jux playin. hahs. sigh. i laugh but im still superr sad!
and jiemin, i tink its mean t call her 'cleaner'. but nvm, she dosen noe so its okayys.

________________

talkin t her online nw. i cn liteally feel her but i cnt haf her. and tt feelin is terrible.
feel like brkin dwn and cry n cry. but den tmr go sch sure goldfiish lei. sure kena
boxed. hahs. okayys, not suppose t b laughin. suppose t b sad.
ure rly cute, so cute. yr image keep popin in my mind. so cute so so cute.
________________

this will be short. nth happen xcept im SAD.

` spyke

// laters.

Yours, K
10:39 AM

okayys, fianally gone my com up. FINALLY!

okayys. look, i noe im forcin myself. u obviously tink likewise bcus now u dun care.
u alr got someone new. so y shd i bother, even if i bother m i appreciated? i doubt so.
and i dowana keep cryin for someone whom i thought love me.

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this is another entry for you.
u read it ytd right? yep, u did. u tld me. doh. and ure rly cute. and i miss you nw.
cos right nw ure havin tution den cnot msg me, so SAD ): anws, i dun lyk e mop hair too.
shu dun like her too, nobody lyks her xcept yr gd fren! hahs! i noe and yr gd fren cn NVR
be separated. opps, did i jux irritate you? HAHAHA. im glad i noe YOU! jux tt i gotta
try harder rite? and mk u haf tt kinda feelin for me. its so diff. im tryg i guess (:
i got a lot of chocs at hm. u want some, pig? okayys. i hope u msg me after yr tuition (:

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oh no, exams seems t be nearer each time den soon prelims den N lvls. fuck man.
but im gettin on fine cos im tinkg of you.
im still waiting, accept me soon.



` spyke


always.


/ laters.






night post-_____________________


okayys, hate me for all u want. from e day u blog abt him, i dun feel yr love coming.
and u caused it. u wanted a brk n so i gave it t you. and nw ure lyk this? u tld me t move on
and so i did. u said u will t. i'll fuck off, u dun need me since the first day u got close t him.
u were not sad tt we broke too. u dint shed s much tears s me. blame it on me if u feel
beta this way. hate me if u feel beta too. all i cn say is nobody is gna noe hw i feel
anymore. cos i'll nvr say cos nobody cares. u shd b hpy things turn out this way, simply bcus u
wanted it. and whn i let go u say fuck off. all along u wanted a brk not me.
i noe even if i say sry, its not gna help cos u hate me. but it wun hurt me t say sry.

IM SORRY.

Yours, K
1:32 PM

oh. i noe i noe. im Lousy, btw im startin it w a capital L bcus tis leta is nice.
my surname starts w L!! hahs. anws, so many things happened and i cnt say for sure
if im glad if its over or not. but at least YOU cn rly do wev u want nw. hahs.
s for me, well. i'll try t get over. forcin u cn say. but what matters is tt ure hpy.
den im hpy too! (: well, but if u wna talk t somebody u cn talk t me. but
i doubt u will la. u got yr fren (:

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i dono if u'll be online t read tis. seems lyk ure so busy almost everyday.
den ytd fell aslp so early. PIG! but nvm las. oh man, im beggining t talk lyk
u :p i will always try harder. so dun disappoint me okkays? love.
and PLS cut yr hair agn! cos u look lyk yr 'gd fren'. im sure u dowana look like her rite?
HAHAHA. whn u finishin yr project ah? so lng lei. exams comin lo, hate it. sai!
okayys, tis is only for u, see i so nice. (:

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i hate exams. i hate everything xcept e part where dere is you.
but it dosen matter la. u wun care lo. meano.
okayys, tis is short.
i LOVE e surname LIM.
and YOU noe why.
pls accept. im waitin.



` spyke


with love.


laters.

Yours, K
7:31 PM