Will you take me home,
Will you take me home.
How long must I wait,
for you to bring me home?

I'll wait even if it takes years,
for you to take me home.
My confidant, I miss you.

Yours, K
2:15 AM

Yours, K
2:18 PM

........

How can anyone resist Elle? (:






:O cherisa finally took a photo.


Get what I mean?


HAHAHAHAH!


Sorry Elle, to rush this post for you I
can't cover "IT" up.






Me and.... err, Elle.

Okay, everyone. Check Elle out :





I don't know what to say about her anymore.
Seriously.

I realised that I'm not that much of a whore,
Elle is. Camwhore whore. HAHAHA.

Yours, K
1:08 PM

I know I have let you down so many times.
So just ignore me for good cause I'm not worth
to be the best friend you're looking for.
I can't be bothered anymore cause I was the one who
let you down. Although it's affecting me a lot I can't help it.
Till the extend that I'm numbed.
How depressed I was that you're not talking to me,
has turned into a used to it feeling. It's that bad
So, just don't talk to me.
Not like you are talking to me now.

I told you things would be different.

I hate how much I miss you

Yours, K
4:03 PM

Yesterday,
I went centre point to see YL.
I was like searching for her in the restaurant
and finally I saw her! :D :D :D :D
She saw me and smiled! :D :D :D :D :D :D
At that moment, my heart was in a whirlpool
my face was lited up. I was no longer tired,
I just wanted to see her more.

Sadly, I have to leave soon so I took a quick
glance before leaving. Now, I can't wait for tmr!
BECAUSE I CAN SEE HER AGAIN! :) :) :) :) :)

So, after that we hang around in town.
I didn't wanna go town cause I was feeling emo.
HAHAH. That was according to Gaya.
We were slacking at burger king's and Gaya told us
about her math teacher!
I tell you Gaya can be the next him! He's so funny
especially his voice.

Yesterday was just super hilarious.
Then Elle came to meet us with her friend.
Went over to karen's and talked.
Left at about 12 plus and I was so tired.

Painted on, life is behind the mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess i've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still i see somehow

Yours, K
12:22 PM

Yesterday, after training, me and Germaine
stayed back in school to do our assignments.
Zaty and Farhana came to join us and we camwhored.
The pictures are seriously damn funny. Especially Germaine
and Zaty.

Anyways, all of us know that Zaty have such melodious
voice so we asked her to sing. It was really nice until me
and Germaine decided that we could do so much more.
HAHA. As expected, we were off key.
So while walking to the station we were singing and,

Me: Zaty, sing something.
Zaty: What you want me to sing?
Me and Germaine: Anything la.

So Zaty sang something which have the word crazy in it.

Germaine: Oh! You know the song, You drive me crazzzy!?
- she began singing
Germaine: You drive me crazy and I'm in too deep,
MY HEART IS THUMPING AND I JUST CAN'T SEE.

Zaty, Farhana and me laughed like mad ok!
What is my heart is thumping and I just can't see!?
HAHAHA.
So we began to sing Britney's songs and we were still laughing.
I think Germaine is a bit crazy already because of VVVVVV!

Anyways, training was fantastic cause I saw -
I don't know her name :(
How sad. Anyways, yesterday was really my day.
Except that YL didn't come to school.
Other than that, I'm a happy K :)

Eyecandies are for my eyes,
But you are for me.
J, I love you

Yours, K
2:47 PM

I think we are not best friends anymore.
Oh, so you've been talking to her.
I SEE.
I think you clearly forgot that you're
not talking to me when I'm trying so hard.
I guess you won't be back too or when you're
back, things will be different.
I can bet you, things will be different.
Don't bother, go and be in their circle of friends.
You don't need me.


:(
She didn't come school today!
Her hostel is in school!
Why she so lazy!? :( :( :(
I wanna go over her place later.

Don't worry I still love you J.
A lot in fact.
And I'm so jealous that you're shopping now.
I wanna shop too!

Things have gotten out of hand,
And I can't stop it now.
I love you more each day,
And each day is a torture without you.
We can create mircales,
If you were to put your hand on mine.
I'll go any measures to make you happy,
Cos I'm yours and You're mine.

That smile on your face,
I'll never forget.
I'll put that smile up,
Forever.
I love you.

Yours, K
3:53 PM

Dear My somebody,

I want to be there when you're happy,
I want to see you play your dirty sport.
I can't go on without you in my world.
I want to be yours, girl.
I just want to spend the night with you.

Don't fret that I'll leave,
cause you know I'll never.
Barely three weeks made me
over infactuated with you.
This must be love.

I want your life to be my life,
I want my life to be you r life.
You make me smile like none other.
When I think of you, I smile.
This really must be love.

Can I take your hand and lead the way,
the way where nothing else matters.
Where we will be euphoric at the
presence of each other.
This is really love.
:)



On a random note, I didn't know Amelia
knew about it long ago :O

Yours, K
9:27 PM

Even Peter Parker forgave Flint Marko,
when Marko asked for his forgivness.
Harry osborne forgive Peter Parker.

If you're wondering why am I saying this
then let me tell you. This show do have a message
for its audience, which is to forgive and forget.
No, I didn't make it up myself. The director said
in the papers.

Forgive and forget.
Then only you will find life have a meaning.
Because only then you will stop thinking of the
past. This is not directed to anyone in particular.
It just struck me.

Yours, K
5:27 PM

I make many mistakes in my life.
Some mistakes are minute and some are
major. People throughout make mistakes
and they are forgiven because those whom they
hurt and cheated forgive them because they believe
that they will change. I know I've hurt
too many people to count with my ten fingers but
I only hope that they will forgive me. I want your
forgiveness, I don't want anybody to look at me in
a different way. Do you like people looking at you
in way as though you've committed a serious crime?

If I'm able to blog this out, I'm sure ya'll can be
assured that all the mistakes I've done will not be
repeated again. You see, I wanna be responsible for
what I'm doing. I don't want people to call me childish
and whatnot because I'm not. I really want to have a
real good image in everyone's mind. I'm not bad, I'm
not mean, I'm just someone who needs attention.
It's true. Think about it. Would I have lie about those
if I didn't need attention? Yes, I indicated that I lied.

See what I mean now? I put those shameful things I did
up here. IT'S NOT TO GAIN SYMPATHY, IT'S NOT
TO MAKE ME SEEM AS THOUGH I'M DAMN POOR
THING. It's to show everyone, including my friends
what kind of person I am. Because I'm ashamed of it,
I want to change that. If you still think that I don't deserve
your forgiveness then let me tell you this,

If those people whom I've hurt and cheated or cheated didn't
matter to me, be it an ex girlfriend or a friend that I've lost,
I wouldn't be affected. I wouldn't be blogging this whole
damn thing out. I wouldn't wanna assure people, I would have
just not care and carry on with my life. But I'm doing this to
show those that I'm sincere this time in saying my sorry.
If you're that kinda person who don't mind losing me as
a friend or don't bother whether I'm your friend or not
then you would have bother coming here at all.

I'm someone who treasure my friends most.
That was why I realised I was so irresponsible
for breaking up the friendship I had with my friends.
I didn't thought for them and I even thought what I
did was right.
How wrong I was.
Even if you're someone I don't talk to most of the time,
you got to know that I really treasure every single one
of you as a friend. Just that I don't show it. So, here
I am trying my best to tell/assure you that all those
shits won't happen again.

If it pains you to forgive me, if you don't really care
whether I'm really your friend, I'M SORRY.
I'm sorry for being so un-tolerable. (if there's such
a word) Don't think I don't treat you as a friend
even if you don't forgive me. Because there are some
people whom I've hurt/cheated that I really want to
talk to. I see them online everyday but I can't talk to
them and tell them, " hey friend, I miss you."
You know who you are. There are two or three people in
my contact list that I really want to tell this too.

Do you believe I will mend my ways?
K says she's sorry. She knows she's in the wrong.
Will you forgive me? Please?

Yours, K
12:24 PM

People, go read G's blog.
She's the sweetest girlfriend one can have.

Yours, K
10:12 PM

Liars are not hot.
And nicole, I want you back,
I want Shuwen, Gaya, Ame and Zan.
Cos you know what?
I was wrong, I was sucha fool and thank god
that i saw something that make me realise I
was so being an ass.
But if you guys don't want me back, I get.
I get.

Yours, K
9:20 PM

I love them. So much so that i still miss them even
when I'm with them.

Ame, do you rmb how I will always ask you if you're
okay everytime you look moody?
Do you remember that I always take your camera
and take self-potraits and you'll just give up snatching
the camera away? Cos I'm way too big for you?
Then you'll be in the whatever mode and praying hard
that your camera battery will go flat soon so that you
can save it from me? Remember how I always smack
your ass then hurrily run away? Remember I said that
your handwriting is nice but small? Remember when
zan sleep then we will hit the table to scare her?
Remember how we always need to do our english
journal and you'll always only write three lines or less?
Remember you always slap my head and your head?

Gaya, do you remember that we used to have late
night talks till two three am in the morning?
Just fantasizing things that will never come true.
Remember how I used to tell you to pin her down
and drug her coke so that you can have her?
And we will laugh it off cos all these will never happen.
Remember how I irritated you continuously until you
wanted to try to irritate me but failed? Remember how
we talk like nobody business during english?
Remember how you made me buy milo because
you were hungry? Remember we tied our hair together
and act all girly in school? Remember how we fail math?
Remember how we get the same marks for math and
got the highest? Remember how mdm Y scold you and
say you're attracting attention? Remember how I always
get you into trouble with mdm Y? Remember we finally
thought math was fun?

Nicole, do you still have the tissue paper? The first one
we wrote at macs and was regarded top secret and confidential?
Because what we wrote inside was so shocking that only we
knew? Remember you told me not to talk about her
anymore because you scared you fell for her and I laughed
until I almost died cos you said that? Do you remember
every sunday was our lao couple day until my mum
suggested that it's family day? Do you remember that
you once told me a top secret and I can't tell anybody
or else I that's it? Do you remember how we will
laugh like shit when we talk about her? How we
will push her to each other and say, " your girlfriend"?
Remember how I tease you and will always tell you
I tell her? Remember Macdonalds? Remember
Starbucks? Remember sorry? Remember how I told
you I love you? Remember that you said it was gross
to hug me? Remember you're fatter than me?
Remember how I say, "so fat!" and then run away
after saying that? Remember how we will quarrel
over who's fatter and it's obvious its you?
Remember how we walk around town so that we
can see whoever? Remember whatever I remember?
Do you even remember me?

Shuwen, do you remember how I was sucha
act cute last time? But you'll still love it?
Remember how we tease *ahem?
Remember I always go your house? Remember we
always go school together? Remember we have to
cheong for art together? Remember how we will just
look at each other and just laugh? Remember we sat
beside each other in class for two years? Remember how
we fucking fought? Remember you always wear coloured
bra and I try ways and means for you to get found out?
Remember how you always msg in class and then I will
purposely wanna bao tou you? Remember how I will snatch
your food and eat it up?

Zaneta, remember you are not ah lian. Remember how
you make me have the -_- face? Remember how I scolded
you? Remember how we talk in our own unique language?
Remember how your uh na-s make me and nicole feel like
strangling you? Remember how you always irritate?
Remember when you were down and I was talking to you?
Remember how I told you to be happy? Remember how
you said you will always be there for me no matter what?
Remember how we act lian and beng together but always
deny the fact? Remember how we always say nicole is the
beng? Remember you bought me sardin bread when you
were sec two? Remember you yourself told me that
you were a corrupted prefect? Remember me telling you
that your face itself is already funny?

Yknow, I miss all of you so much.
I'm so dumb to have made such a decision.
What I have now are photos of ya'll not forgetting
the memories. These, I will never forget.
But now I don't have you guys anymore.
This is hurting. I'm sorry to make all of you
angry. I cried and cried and cried hoping that
the next day will be a better day. But i wake
up to feel even more loneliness cos I'm without
anyone. I love you Amelia, I love you Gayathri,
I love you Nicole, I love you Shuwen and I love
you Zaneta. I love the five of you. A LOT A LOT.


Now, you see. What you told me in a message caused
this? I know, this is all my doing. But if you hadn't told
me whatever then all these wouldn't have happened.
Are you happier now to see me like this? I'm not blaming
you, I just want you to think before you say anything.
Cos some things are sensitive issues. Especially when it's
about my friends.
Now, go laugh at me for being the biggest joke you've
ever met. You got what you wanted, so be happy that
things are the way it is. There's no need to feel
remorseful cos I know you won't. There's no guilt in you.
Cos if you're thoughtful, you wouldn't talk about my
friends. Go on, laugh at me. Ask your friends to join in too
if they're not in it. Really got to hand it to you.

Yours, K
1:18 AM

Omg,
I'm tearing.

what gaya said was true, this is karma.
I took the whole situation into my own, I didn't
think for anyone. I shouldn't blame anybody for
this, I should blame myself. It was all my own doing.
I'm sorry, I don't know how many sorry-s I say can cure
but I know it wouldn't at all. But I still will love ya'll
unconditonally. I really will.


And now I'll say, will you be mine?

Yours, K
12:43 AM

Although the conversation was short,
Two minutes and fifty two seconds to be exact.
When I finally did hear you after so long, i can't help
But just to smile to myself.
Though it sounded like you wanted to end the
Conversation as fast as you could but that didn't matter.
Because it beats not hearing you at all.

My heart is beating so fast.
It must be her doing again :)

I learnt the art of smiling to myself

Yours, K
11:00 PM

I thought I was too sensitive,
But now I'm deemed as insensitive?

What I did wasn't on purpose,
I wanted to change for the better but now,
By doing this I'm actually faced with people telling me
I'm wrong? Just to let everyone know, by leaving my
Good friends hurt me more because I'm the one intiating
It. Have you ever thought about it? That you all will be
hurt because of me. But have you thought the same for me?
That being the one that intiates it will be the one that will be
Hurt most.

It's okay, I don't think anyone will understand the situation I
Am in. Because no one get what I'm going through.
Yeah, I'm in the wrong for doing so.
I'm sorry, doubt ya'll will accept this. I understand,
I was the one who put ya'll into this shit too. I guess it doesn't matter.

I hope this will bring me back to you,
Our sunday mornings.

Yours, K
9:51 AM

Hello!
As you can see I'm updating again :O

Pride, will hurt you says:
Karmun Lim
K says:
yes?
K says:
i got you already la
Pride, will hurt you says:
No no
Pride, will hurt you says:
I was going to ask you something else
K says:
yeah?
Pride, will hurt you says:
Why did you type so weirdly just now,
Pride, will hurt you says:
like in the afternoon
Pride, will hurt you says:
that was just sick
Pride, will hurt you says:
seriously
K says:
I just wanna irritate
Pride, will hurt you says:
ha ha ha ha
Pride, will hurt you says:
For a moment,
Pride, will hurt you says:
I thought you were possessed
K says:
CHOY
Pride, will hurt you says:
or like some weird friend of yours
Pride, will hurt you says:
invaded your notebook
K says:
hahah
K says:
cant u see its purposely?
Pride, will hurt you says:
No I can't
Pride, will hurt you says:
keep up the good work for that natural skill
Pride, will hurt you says:
I think you're born with it,
K says:
born!?!?!?
Pride, will hurt you says:
so I'll just learn to accept it
Pride, will hurt you says:
it's life

Jac is dumb. Tsk. She thinks that me speaking in
Ah beng language was NATURAL!? But that really
cracked me up a bit. Thanks for making me smile Jac :)

I was so tired in school. I literally slept at the last meeting.
Then i woke up to do my @#$%^&* journal.
Off to meet Dee with Germaine. I tell you, this two really
can make me laugh continuously. And it's gonna be really
long before I see Dee again.
Thanks for the company Dee and Germaine. It was great.

Tomorrow's a friday and I can hardly wait. Because it is the
last day of the school week. I really need the sleep, my eyebags
are so deep :(
So I'm gonna sleep soon. I think.

I wish I can say so much more,
But you're stopping me.

Goodnight.

Yours, K
11:40 PM

Okay, i hear some people asking me to update.

Howie's party was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! It was so funny :)
I managed to catch up with them since i missed out so much,
so I'm glad that they're doing fine in school. So after the party,
we went to holland and have some drinks and we talk for a bit.
:) The company was great!

So school has been rather hectic for me due to the fact that i
have to rush presentation everyday. Not forgetting, I'm always the one
who does almost all the work. But nonetheless, I love my classmates.
Some to be specific. And after school, ill be rushing out my stupid
journal, oh that's my boring life.

Sometimes, I want to be the person you all want me to be.
Nice, caring, a good listener and whatever that is all cliche.
But I know I can't be as good as how all of you want me to be,
or rather myself. I really want to be there for you guys even
when you call me at 3 am in the morning. I can't help but
feel that I'm just not good enough, or maybe im not trying
hard enough? I'm sorry that I've inflict so much hurt in all
of you who cared but this was never myself. I want to be happy,
I want to hear sad songs and not be depressed. I want to be myself
and not what I am now. Cause one thing for sure is that I'm not
able to face reality, I'm not able to face the fact that I'm losing
my shine.

Don't worry, this will not be for long. I still love you people
wholeheartedly. When I'm back, I hope I'll still be treated the
same. You know I can't do without any of you and it already
killed me for the fact that i told you guys whatever I wanna say.

Don't fucking make use of me,
I won't be fooled twice.

If you're bringing me back to where i started,
then I'm telling you that i will let this go.

okay, goodbye i'm going to sleep,
i've got a test tomorrow.

Yours, K
10:43 PM

i am forgotten.

Yours, K
3:06 AM

there is something that i dont understand.
do you miss someone you barely know and not
miss someone you know for so long?

hello life, if this is you(life) i am living for,
then i rather my mum not give birth to me.

ok sounds really emo, but im NOT.
on a random note,
if i were to die soon/one day, will you cry
because you miss me or will you cry because
you didnt treasure me enough? OR you wont
cry at all?

Yours, K
9:34 AM