Rainbow smile of yours

Monday, June 13, 2005

jus came home after moving with frens.
right, so here i m bloggin! ((:
caught mr and mrs smith, great shw!
4 outta 5 apples!
and i had ART intensive tday,
and i will continue havin it until thurs!
its KILLIN ME!
yes it is. hahs.
tcher screamed at me tday cos i wasen doin art by jus slackin ard.
so did my batik, which was alright i guess.

back ache pls.
I NEED A MASSAGE NOW!!
and i'll love it a bit harder. nt so hard. bt jus nice ((:
HAHS.

right, im off DOIN WRK :p
still NEED tt massage!

honey, i love you.

` spyker !

Yours, K
10:39 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

we used t be gfs. we used t love each otha.
bt WHY cnt we love each otha
s frens nw?
WHY do we always hafta quarrel,
even aft we broke up?
WHY? im gettin so mixed up,
cnt we be FRENS?

did art and im so glad its finally
DONE (:
YAYS.
shu came over my hse t do it too.
and dere's art every day.
shucks ):
bt hey! i cn pass time at home.
beta den stayin at home and do nth!!
hahs.
im so tired now.
- big yawns.
cnt wait for tmr ((:

im gg t slp now.
i need more slp, lackin of it.
gnite.

i'm lovesick, i needa cya honey.
she said i'm sweet agn!
happy ((((((:

` spyker !

Yours, K
11:59 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

jus read diana's blog.
and i totally agree wht mr tan said,
be pro-active. be super enthu in band.
like me. love band like u love yr gfs/bfs.
no wait, its weird. jus love band w yr heart.
play yr instrument well, im so worried for yo'll.
and i'll still be worried until whn the day yo'll cn be INDEPENDENT.
cn flute section show me tt ure independent?
PROVE it t me. will ya?
i promised i'll continue lovin band, even aft i graduate.
cos band mks me hpy, we play wonderful music.
we're suppose t love music, dnt wry im totally into band music.

TRY harder, STRIVE harder, WORK harder.
UNITY is the word. be bonded.
love yr section mates, love yr section. dnt talk bad abt em.
the seniors wil always be here, right grace, kelllyn?
and of cos me. i will be here. any problems w e section
gimme a call. i wil help.
i hope t see a change in e section soon, wrk on it vivi.
i love you guys ((:

` spyker !

Yours, K
10:37 AM

Friday, June 10, 2005

im so damn pissed off by kerrie lee.
yes, im puttin yr name here.
everyone who is readin this entry of mine,
do u wna noe wht kerrie lee said?
she said im dumb cos im fr NA!
bt WAIT,
im nt the only one fr NA, dere a hundreds of ppl
who are in tt stream.
so in other words, she's tryin t say those ppl fr NA
are DUMB.
and i said she was INSULTIN me/us,
u noe wht was tt girl's reply?
she said NO.
now, tell me.
who cn take it if someone called you dumb.

and she expect ppl whom she noe t be hot like her ter.
she said girls throw themselves at him.
and she said i was no eyecandy,
yeh! its true im not.
and she calls me DESPERATE cos i chase aft girls i like.
like hello, which bung dnt chase girls?
even if the girls like e bung dosen mean the bung like the girls right?
so its like the vice versa thang.
wht if the bung like t girl bt tt girl dosen like her?
so hafta CHASE right?
DUH!

so you see her true self now.
if ure fr the NA stream, and u so happen t read this entry.
tell me,
wht are you feelin now?
and wht cn mk it worse is tt ure her FREN.
so now agn, tell me how u feel?
isit worth it t keep someone like her?
tt insult she throw at me is so hurtin!
YES, hurtin. cos,
NVR IN MY ENTIRE LIFE WILL I TINK SHE WILL SAY SUCH THINGS/
and i meant nvr in my entire life.

so put yrself in my shoes and tink of how angry and hurt i am.
THANK YOU ((:

im sry kerrie if this is embarrassin. i dono y i say sry either.
bt at least i said sry.
i need t let it out, and blogger was e best place
t let it out.
u cn hate me for all i care.
i jus wnt us t stop quarrellin.
6mths we've been quarrellin.
so stop it.
pretend we nvr knew.

__________________

honey,
im sry im nt gd enuf for you.
im useless, yes i noe i am )):

` spyker !

Yours, K
9:26 PM

Thursday, June 9, 2005

screwed orals /:
dammit. i was talkin nonsense.
nth mks sense, i wasn't in e right mind.
i was tinkg of you.
i noe i shdnt haf durin orals. i cldnt help it.
SORRY t disappoint you.

i got a rounder tummy den you,
you jealous?

hahs ((:

ilu -

` spyke !

Yours, K
10:56 PM

Wednesday, June 8, 2005

she cldnt smile,
so i tld her smth sweet.
and she smiled.
she tld me i was sweet.
she made me grin frm eart t ear.
she made my day.
yes,
i WILL love you w true love.
put yr love in me.

> im an art student, and look at my colour combination, dammit :p

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i was tryin t see you,
bt i was blocked by her.
and whn i jus wna catch a glimpse of you,
i saw her talkin t you.
whn i checked my heart if i was trustin you,
and sad t say, it said no.
whn i asked myself if all this was worth it,
and of cos, it was and will always be.
i love you honey ((:

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okay, last day of 2 weeks intensive. bt pls!
i got art everyday frm next week; 8AM t 4PM!
this is jus suckin my blood okay!
i cnt take it anymore. my blood vessels are fat w high pressure blood pls!
hafta write letter for the 2 days i dint go sch. dammit.
orals tmr /:
shits pls, i dono wht t do alr. bt luckily no picture.
i HOPE, PRAY, WISHES tt we wnt haf picture.
i tink Ns wnt haf la. hahs.

luckily its gna be a day camp .

` spyke !

Yours, K
9:24 PM

Tuesday, June 7, 2005

ALRIGHTAYES!
had FUN in twn pls!
went with,
fel, shu and jiemin.
we were like playin in twn!
YES! literally playin in twn!
we were makin fun of ppl, and foolin em!
its super hilarious!
and lou got her hair cut, wait i meant fringe cut.
look like a toot. seriously. toot face = toot hair.
she looks, urh.. fatter?
shit, she beta nt read this, or her fat hands wil land on my fat face!

sry t jiemin, fel and shu. had t leave early.
for some reasons, and u guys noe why :p
had dinn agn and agn!
im bloated up, shit.
hahs.
n i jus got home. feel so tired.
there's sch tmr, and aft tt its band.
t'chin vivi t handle picc.
i'm sure you (vivi) cn do it!

whn i kiss your rosy cheeks,
my heart skips a beat.

and whn i hold your hands,
it was a wonder tt i cld.

and whn i tld you i love you,
and i was amazed you do too.

whn i put yr hair behind yr ears,
i felt tt i was totally in love.

you noe i love you,
so baby, dnt hurt me agn.

are we one?

` spyke !

Yours, K
10:45 PM

Monday, June 6, 2005

i'm feelin so insecure.

do you noe?
no, you dnt.

do you even care?
tt i'm e one who loves you,
and nt her.

do you noe i'm hurtin in here?
no, you dnt too.

i miss you so much.
i wnt be able t see you tt much anymore.

my heart feels empty,
whn ure nt ard.

i feel as tho i'm lackin smth.
this feelin sucks.

i love you,
and,
DO YOU KNOW THAT?

` spyke !

Yours, K
9:22 PM

Sunday, June 5, 2005

if i hold your hand,
will you hold mine?

give this love,
a little try, baby.

have faith in me,
cos i'll nvr let you down.

i'll catch you whn you fall,
will you let me catch you too?

i've been lovin you,
for sucha long time.

you noe i'll nvr let you go.

cos...

i'll hold you up.

you're my life ((:

found out smth, recoverin fr shock.
i mean will you DIE tellin me the TRUTH?
if i know it earlier, i wld haf stopped wev i was doin.
and come t tink of it i was correct.
and now ppl are actl tinkg of it?
wtf. so screwed.
im feelin so feverish right now. i need medication.
bt im so fiackin lazy t go see one right now.
my personal doctor is comin ltrs t see me.
she's gna nag! i BET she will.

im gna do art ltrs.
monster's art wrk. suppose t be due fri. bt i dint go sch.
hahs.
so hafta do it before she call my mom agn!
and say im slackin. and i hate it whn mom nags!
nag until the ears cn bleed!
hahs.

i love you

` spyke

Yours, K
1:12 PM

Saturday, June 4, 2005

i jus got bac home.
went t watch monster-in-law w lou, shu, kay, tam and her fren.
and tday is tammy's bdae. so urh; happy bday!!
movie was gd, i gif it 4 outta 5 apples!
hahs.
den went arcade, and did the usual routine; DDR-ing.
goodness! shu n lou wnted me t play?! and me n kay jus ran away!
and came bac only whn dey finish.
saw fel. and i tink she's stil out la.
hahs.
went coffee-ing. woah. i ordered a large plate of pasta and went
t eat agn at foodcourt?!
and down dere is gettin rounder and rounder!
dammit :p

when i hold you in my arms,
i nvr wna let go.

and i love it when we kiss,
when we hugged.

and i hope you see the passionate love,
when you look into my eyes.

and i only wnt you t noe,
that ure the one i love.

so baby,
i wnt let you go.

` spyke

Yours, K
9:58 PM

Friday, June 3, 2005

will you stop it?!
i dono if you read my blog, bt if u happen t see this; stop it!
cos its gettin nowhere.
if you stop, she wil stop too.
den let everything be in the past, dnt get bac at each other,
cos i dnt rly see a point, it wil only mk things worse.
stop all yr entries abt her and all this wil come t a rest.
i ASSURE. i wil mk sure she stops too.
is tt a deal?
so we settle this fair n square? no more quarrels.
she's sick of it and im sure u are too.
jus stop fuckin quarrelin and it wil be e end.
shake hands and draw a line.

okay, im at e com lab nw.
ltrs wil be gg out, w shu n kay -
gg shoppin w kay - n her aunt t buy clothes?

i'm missin you baby,

its like almost everyday i miss you

i rly wonder wht will happen t me if you leave me.

i wna be with you s lng s possible.

i love you HONEY (:

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jus got bac home, darn tired!
and i had so much fun tnite!
and i tink my tongue bled jus nw. damn pain nw!
:p
anws, im so tired. so this part is gna be short.
cheerios!

` spyke !

Yours, K
1:35 PM

Thursday, June 2, 2005

so damn happy today.

i'm feelin so high!

i'm feelin so loved.

do you feel loved too?

` spyke !

Yours, K
2:34 PM

Wednesday, June 1, 2005

okay, jus got bac fr SHU's hse. and im so pissed off la.
watched hse of wax den suddenly the @^&$!%^* vcd or the player smth
wrong den the whole thing stopped n cnt even watch!
arghh!!
okay, chill spyke, chill.
anws, VANESSA LIM WEI.
this is for you; if ure readin this pls dnt put yr name s breast!
its so crude n wrng!
and this is for LAM HEITUNG;
dnt need t announce t the whole world tt im the ' P ' animal!

jus sent sab n kay - t the bus stop jus nw, n so here i am bloggin.
pissin over the stupid hse of wax. and i tink its so gruesome and horrid.
paris hilton was WAHH at first den ltrs i was like EEEWW!
watch and u'll understand, bt under 16 cnt watch.
BUT...
who cares :p

_____________________

i'll never break your heart
i'll never make you cry
i'd rather die than live without you
i'll give you all of me
honey, that's no lie
as time goes byyou will get to know me
a little more better
girl that's the way love goes baby.

there is nobody
who can make it right
nobody else can do it
nobody but you.

and how i wish you only knew
what i feel inside for you
you probably haven't got a clue
but i wish you knew
how i love you baby.

i'm so sad
i'm on the verge of breakin down agn
promise me you'll nvr leave me
the wound is deep enough

` spyke

Yours, K
11:30 AM