Okay, i hear some people asking me to update.

Howie's party was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! It was so funny :)
I managed to catch up with them since i missed out so much,
so I'm glad that they're doing fine in school. So after the party,
we went to holland and have some drinks and we talk for a bit.
:) The company was great!

So school has been rather hectic for me due to the fact that i
have to rush presentation everyday. Not forgetting, I'm always the one
who does almost all the work. But nonetheless, I love my classmates.
Some to be specific. And after school, ill be rushing out my stupid
journal, oh that's my boring life.

Sometimes, I want to be the person you all want me to be.
Nice, caring, a good listener and whatever that is all cliche.
But I know I can't be as good as how all of you want me to be,
or rather myself. I really want to be there for you guys even
when you call me at 3 am in the morning. I can't help but
feel that I'm just not good enough, or maybe im not trying
hard enough? I'm sorry that I've inflict so much hurt in all
of you who cared but this was never myself. I want to be happy,
I want to hear sad songs and not be depressed. I want to be myself
and not what I am now. Cause one thing for sure is that I'm not
able to face reality, I'm not able to face the fact that I'm losing
my shine.

Don't worry, this will not be for long. I still love you people
wholeheartedly. When I'm back, I hope I'll still be treated the
same. You know I can't do without any of you and it already
killed me for the fact that i told you guys whatever I wanna say.

Don't fucking make use of me,
I won't be fooled twice.

If you're bringing me back to where i started,
then I'm telling you that i will let this go.

okay, goodbye i'm going to sleep,
i've got a test tomorrow.

Yours, K
10:43 PM