Monday, May 21, 2007
I make many mistakes in my life.
Some mistakes are minute and some are
major. People throughout make mistakes
and they are forgiven because those whom they
hurt and cheated forgive them because they believe
that they will change. I know I've hurt
too many people to count with my ten fingers but
I only hope that they will forgive me. I want your
forgiveness, I don't want anybody to look at me in
a different way. Do you like people looking at you
in way as though you've committed a serious crime?
If I'm able to blog this out, I'm sure ya'll can be
assured that all the mistakes I've done will not be
repeated again. You see, I wanna be responsible for
what I'm doing. I don't want people to call me childish
and whatnot because I'm not. I really want to have a
real good image in everyone's mind. I'm not bad, I'm
not mean, I'm just someone who needs attention.
It's true. Think about it. Would I have lie about those
if I didn't need attention?
Yes, I indicated that I lied. See what I mean now? I put those shameful things I did
up here.
IT'S NOT TO GAIN SYMPATHY, IT'S NOT
TO MAKE ME SEEM AS THOUGH I'M DAMN POOR
THING. It's to show everyone, including my friends
what kind of person I am. Because I'm ashamed of it,
I want to change that. If you still think that I don't deserve
your forgiveness then let me tell you this,
If those people whom I've hurt and cheated or cheated didn't
matter to me, be it an ex girlfriend or a friend that I've lost,
I wouldn't be affected. I wouldn't be blogging this whole
damn thing out. I wouldn't wanna assure people, I would have
just not care and carry on with my life. But I'm doing this to
show those that I'm sincere this time in saying my sorry.
If you're that kinda person who don't mind losing me as
a friend or don't bother whether I'm your friend or not
then you would have bother coming here at all.
I'm someone who treasure my friends most.
That was why I realised I was so irresponsible
for breaking up the friendship I had with my friends.
I didn't thought for them and I even thought what I
did was right.
How wrong I was.
Even if you're someone I don't talk to most of the time,
you got to know that I really treasure every single one
of you as a friend. Just that I don't show it. So, here
I am trying my best to tell/assure you that all those
shits won't happen again.
If it pains you to forgive me, if you don't really care
whether I'm really your friend, I'M SORRY.
I'm sorry for being so un-tolerable. (if there's such
a word) Don't think I don't treat you as a friend
even if you don't forgive me. Because there are some
people whom I've hurt/cheated that I really want to
talk to. I see them online everyday but I can't talk to
them and tell them, " hey friend, I miss you."
You know who you are. There are two or three people in
my contact list that I really want to tell this too.
Do you believe I will mend my ways?
K says she's sorry. She knows she's in the wrong.
Will you forgive me? Please?
