Sunday, April 8, 2007
it's been some time since we last spoke,
this is gonna sound like a bad joke.i just read ame's blog. (080407)
well said. she blogged abt how she
really felt nd i agreed. bad addictions,
bad cultures can actl be inculcated in one's life.
all they need is time t do it nd everyone knows
tht its easier to learn bad than good.
but since most of us know, then
why do we still choose to learn the bad way?
like wht ame said abt ' number one ' ,
he's a straight Ace student but Yet,
he chose t steal, for wht?
for the fun of it or just bec he's too rich
so he needed some entertainment?
i admit, i stole from my mum many times.
nd each time i stole, it'll be in hundreds.
be in a hundered or two. when i took it,
i dont feel any guilt at all. i thought i ought t
take it cos aft all she's suppose t give me money.
thinking back, i was being sucha unfilial daughter.
my mum worked so hard t earn money for
the family, to pay off bills nd even neccessities
for household nd even for my school.
but here i am stealing her hard earned money
like i dont give a fuck how much isit.
i feel so
guilty till now.
so wht if she's working in a big company nd
earn big bucks?
its not right t steal
from someone, esp your parents.hahaha. i know, its like why am i blogging
abt all these. like it doesnt concern anyone
of you at all. but im trying to post it up here
cos i want ppl to know ive turned over a new leaf.
i tried nd i did. i no longer steal nd i even
worked for my own expenses. to the
extend tht i gave my parents nd grandma
money for their expenses. yknow, i feel so
damn proud of myself.
anws,
you gave it up for some new ppl.
how did you know she gave it up?
she didnt. i never see you try harder
before, never ever
ever.where were you when we were laughing?
where were you when we were joking?
where were you when we were talking?
we mentioned you when we were talking
cos we missed you.
do you know?
but, where were you? you were nowhere
near us, nowhere reachable.
do you know it hurts t see you closer to them
nd not us? do you know it hurts tht this is
getting out of hand nd noone is doing anything.
why dont you care, bec its a hassle now or
isit we're not on yr list anymore?
so now, where did you go?
i haven heard from you for weeks.
oh, i see.
we're forgotten. not surprising
isnt it?
cos we can see. if you dont need us
then let me tell you this, we dont need you
too.
without you we're crippled,but since if you can do without us,
then wht cant we? we're not yr followers
anymore. not like ure the
leader either.
why cant you two just settle whatever tht happened?
must ya'll really not care abt each other?
is tht wht ya'll wnt?
cant you change for the better nd stop
moving back to the past. move on
nd dont hog onto it.
past explains it all. look forward to the future
nd
just let us all be happy again.
you dont have to doubt her yknow.
she's your friend. dont you trust your own
friend? why must you say hurting things to her?
fine, you dont find it hurting but do you
know it pierced her? but she cannot
be bothered cos she gave up.
you caused the ending yrself,
But if you're willing to do wht
you promised then im sure she'll
welcome you back. very sure.
please, dont ever paint a good picture
in front of anyone. cos you know
everyone have got their own limits nd
you got yrs.
stop it. you dont have to keep harping
on it. wht benefit do you get if you do?
but have you thought of wht consequences
you've caused when you do.
cos ure her friend, she gave you face.
did you realise it or are you just
caught up with expressing your
thoughts in the
wrong way? isit a must for
you to say all these so you can
' get it off yr chest' ?
i hope all of us will think abt it.
isit worth losing it just for something
minor but offensive?
sometimes sorry does cure, but
you never did try to say the word.
bec you think ure alwys right?
or isit bec you think tht word
doesnt exist in your dictionary?
i think its the latter.
ponder over it carefully.
dont get worked up, cos getting
worked up will only confuse your own mind.
really.
wow, this is srsly a damn long post.
type until im kinda hungry now.
haha. im gonna sleep, damn tired.
gnite world.
nd we can be on the phone for,
three hours not saying one word.
nd I would still cherish every moment.
