Tuesday, August 16, 2005
i was suppose t study CHEM.bt den me and skye gt tired of MOLES.so we came into the com lab and start doin all this.bloggin agn. its so borin, im gna fail chem bt, yesof cos i wil study hard for it. i LOVE chem. haha.yeh, its weird cos a lot of ppl hate chem. bt ack.i tink im gna mug for chem tday. i shall stay up all nite and shant slp at all. cos i dowana fail chem. i rly dowan.oh, i plan t focus on my human and sci t get my 3pointers.i noe i cn do it, pls tel me t focus and nt t g astray.and also tel me nt t be lazy. cos laziness is ntgna get me anywher.i miss lessons. i rather haf lessons den exams. dey'restressin me out. im so glad skye, ame, zan and minn are safe.i rly hope, wish, pray tht nth wil hpn t em agn. im tinkg a lot suddenly. i was tinkg,im stil tinkg. i dowana tink bt its bec of u i hafta.i need t tink for yr future, yr happiness.and u need t tink of it too. i noe its nt fair,bt life is nv fair. sometimes u gota take whn ppl gif.and evn if u dowana tk whn dey gif u stil hafta.cos its life. i cnt call it regrettin bt im very scared u'll regret one day, and i noe tht one day is comin soon.i aint no idea y i am typin tis bt i jus wna let u noe.u haf no idea how much i put in t get u,and i dowana see tht in the end wht i get is simply nth.y'noe tht feelin is gna hurt a lot. and im feelin it now.i may fuckin laugh and fuckin smil bt u noe thts aint fuckin real.wait, u dono. yeh, u dono. wht do u noe? tht u love me (do u?) only?tht the no. is twenty-seven?i've been tinkg all nite, all day, all mths. and i stil cnt find the damn ans. QUICK! gimme the ans. i dowana feel so lost inall tis.cn u find me in all tis? cn u?was it real tht it all hpnd in one day? was it jus a day?or was it mths tht we've loved? things arent gg my way nw.dey're gg t some way tht is gna brk ALL TIS APART.all tis apart, do u noe?do u tink u cn jus supplement it w love? was it love?do u tink u cn jus supplement it w yr so called swt words tht actl mk me wna believe and not.was it all tht i've asked for?was it evr evr be u? jus u only.i only ask of u t gimme yr real u. e same taste im havin onmy lips. tht saltish taste tht i hate. the taste tht i thgt i'l nv taste agn BT i was wrng.and u thgt it was nth whn u tasted it.do u noe tht im evn sad? cn u HEAR? cn u SEE?u cnt cos ure jus nt sensitive enuf?or u TINK tht u are. shower me w yr everyth bt dnt showerme badly and leave me hurtin.u nv noe honey.how i wish everyth was accordin t wht was planned.OH NO. MR TAN NOE THT HIS FOTO IS UPLOADED.HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! and he asked how did he look? haha.so funny. and he tld mr foo and he's quite KANCHEONGt the max. haha.no laughters, no hahas, no smiles, no everyth.cn we g bac accordin t planned?` spyker !
Yours, K
4:21 PM
