hello (:

2007-09-11T13:50:00.001+08:00

After much thought, I decided to be at
spykespykespyke.livejournal.com

Yeap, the url is same as my hotmail.
So long blogger, I'll come back for you at times.

2007-09-11T01:38:00.001+08:00

I LEFT MY FAVOURITE NIKE BRA AT THE HOTEL.
I JUST PISSED MYSELF OFF.

2007-09-10T01:18:00.001+08:00

Past = me
Present = her

No matter how much you deny, you know you
feel for her a little but you're not admitting.
Oh wells.

And oh, you can take anything you want from me
except the one I love and stop doing it.
Stop denying too cause it's obvious enough for me to see.
Just a note for everyone, choose your friends wisely.
Don't end up like me and chose a friend
who likes the girl I love.

2007-09-10T00:08:00.000+08:00

I wake up every night, to see the state I'm in.
It's like an endless fight, I never seem to win.

So I'm back and go to Sheryl's blog for more.

We were part of each other's life and I was the one
person whom you can't seem to get your mind off.
And without doubt, you were always on my mind too.
I look forward to school because there was you, I can
see you face, your smile and I can see you looking at me.
How we walked pass each other in school pretending that both
of us didn't exsist but inside we are yearning so much
for us to be open and how much I wanted to tell you,
" Good morning sweetheart, I love you." But I could only
do that in a virtual form as a text message.

Everyday, we were just like lovebirds humming tunes and
singing love songs and I felt so blessed and I was so Proud.
You sacrificed because of something you experienced called love.
It was new to you and you love it cause you didn't knew that
loving someone can be so sweet and I know you love being loved
by me.

I knew you were upset when you walked away.
I remembered that I told you not to leave me and
make you promise me but you kept silent.
I understood that you couldn't commit and couldn't
make such a promise that you can't keep.
And Baby, I was heartbroken because I know I won't
be your Morning, Afternoon and Night for long.
But it couldn't beat being heartbroken that you found
someone after me.

She's now your Morning, Afternoon and Night.

2007-09-04T11:41:00.000+08:00

People lie to hide guilt and it's you two.
I always thought you were a threat and I'm right.

I was telling Gaya not to let her know her gf/bf or else
someone will take them away just like my situation.
Then Gaya said she wont have any gfs and she wouldn't take her
bf too. Why? Because if her bf is (that race) she won't take them.
HAHAHAHA. Seriously, Gaya is funny.

2007-09-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

I smiled when I thought about how crazily we were in
love with each other. How I was your Morning, Afternoon and Night,
and you were too. Then how we got love sick because it was unusual
that we couldn't text each other as much or talk on the phone. How I will
count the times you will say the same word over and over again and you
didn't really care cause you were happy that way. I was happy that you
were happy and I loved it when I force you to kiss me through the phone.
I could sense that you were blushing but you liked it.

I liked the way you smell even though you didn't bathe but because
love blinds me and I guess it blinded my nose by loving the way you stink.
You gave your first kiss to me and even you weren't my first but it felt like it.
Why? Because you were innocent. You were consious of how your kiss
to me will be like. Whether I liked it or not. But Babe, you know
I don't like anything you do for me cause I love it.
Sounds corny? Because we were in love.

I didn't treat you the best I could and I know you mind.
I know I hurt you but you didn't tell me and when you told me how I hurt
you, you already left me. I don't realise what I've done to cause the one I
love and adore to be in pain. I always thought you weren't, I thought.
Cause you loved me, you let it go. I love you too and I still love you.

I can sacrifice cause there is only one you.

2007-09-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sleep because I was talking to my friends and
dreaming about what it would be like if I could get my hands on
that Nikon camera for $1300+ fucking expensive I swear.

It was at the space where we hid under the moonlight and kissed.
How disturbing those noises the lizards were making but that
didn't matter because that's how people in love will react.
I guess we were crazy and we were yearning to kiss each other too.
I couldn't see you face clearly because it was dark and it was early
in the morning where people were sleeping and we were... well,
enjoying each other's company. You were so wonderful and I was
lucky, very lucky to have you.

I saw the space a few days back and how I recall and how real it
felt once again. But I can only recall, and thats the best I can have.
All I have is words with me, but I knew my actions could make you stay.
But rather, it made you leave because I fucking walked away.
Now when I think back, my life get shortened by a few days.

I never knew how to be really happy when I lost you.

2007-09-02T02:34:00.001+08:00

Edited.

~~She was at your house.~~
Your heart instead.

2007-09-02T01:29:00.001+08:00

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

2007-09-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

Edited.

I'm scared to see you because :
I don't want to see what I'm not suppose to see,
I don't want to hear what I'm not suppose to hear.

I keep telling myself that it is not what it seems to be,
but I guess I sucked at convincing myself.
I keep thinking of that particular scenario and I think
it affected me and it was showed during training.
Sigh.

While I was walking home I was thinking of all the possibilities.
And I finally conclude; it's different.
You did that three times, replacing one after another,
You find any kick in that and hurting the one you dumped?

It's what you two said, claim and deny.
But when everything is visible and clear in front of you,
then I think it's a different story.

2007-08-30T02:28:00.000+08:00

I feel The Urge.

I miss you. Damn badly.
Sigh.

2007-08-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hairin saw her today!
Not fair! :(
I miss seeing her.
This. Is. Bad. Because. I. Think. I've. Really. Fallen. For. Her.

2007-08-27T01:01:00.000+08:00

Your hair.
Your nose.
But your face,
keeps me in comatose.

Sorry I don't make sense but I'm very much in love
with someone. And I think that's what love do to you,
it's crazy but I think I like it. Hehehehehe.

Hello E for Elephant, I'm K for Kangaroo.
It's gonna be 3 weeks and I hope we can see each other in school.
:)

2007-08-22T15:08:00.000+08:00

I should stop using the intial like "K" cause I realise I'm not the
only one. So some other people might ask questions using
the initial "K" and they think it's me. Hahaha. Seriously, I got
nothing else better to blog cause class is boring and I'm Eggcited.

I'm gonna go home, read a book and sleep. What a life I'm living.
And seriously, on the way to school I kept thinking of -(Anon).
I wonder how it would be like if we were to get together.
Hmmm.

2007-08-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I close my eyes and pretend that being hurt is an inconvinience
that can be overcome with the proper amount of words and/or some physcology.
There are times when I wanna be alone and cry my heart out but knowing
how puffy my eyes will be, I refused. I keep all those pain in me until
that fine day I will explode in pieces. I don't have a big heart to contain those
misgivings only I think my ass is big and I don't lie about that. I am hips,
so hips don't lie. Sorry about the bad puns but I seriously need something
lame and stupid to cheer me up and that would probably be, myself.

Be it a failed/brief relationship or a failed friendship, I'm so emotional.
So how can I be so insane to ask myself to check whether
I need them in my life. There are times when I thought that
I can do without them and lead life as per normal as how I always do
like eating so damn much and complain I'm so damn fat.
But I'm so used to their exsistence that the most difficult is even when the
relationship fails you want them to be your friend to share your woes.
But how life torture me and how I torture myself that it's so difficult to have
such a scenario.

I think I'm sucha bore cause all I have is words and no pictures.
I don't have the habbit of taking pictures when I go out and not
when everything I do is about floorball.
I want to talk through my pictures but unfortunately my camera is missing
and I don't want to use my phone camera. You know talking through
pictures is so cool cause there are many interpretations and it's up to you to
interpret it. So no offence even if you misinterpret it.

Wow, I'm suprised how I type so much and how I'm so tired at 1:27.
Alright, there is fucking school tomorrow and I don't like the faci because
she doesn't like me, I can tell.

Okay, I'm off to hop and hope to find someone that I can relate to while
on the process of hopping and hopping and hopping.

And seriously, I think I fell in love with you.

2007-08-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

18 months.
Yes, I'm still at it and I'm still clinging on to it.
Cause, unlike you, I don't have what it takes to
forget what we had.
I don't have the strength to let you go.

Yeah, you might whatever me.
But I'm sorry, I love you all the same.
Feelings don't just fade because of the distance.

Your image engluf me.
Stay happy my someone.
I love you.

2007-08-17T00:59:00.000+08:00

The memories keep piling on me.
I just can't erase us.
Don't you miss us?

2007-08-16T11:28:00.000+08:00

I blog too much suddenly.

Can't help, class is boring and I'm so tired.
Can't wait for the holidays. But the other schools
have longer breaks than us. Wtf.
Then a new class when a new semester starts.
I'm afraid I don't know how to adapt. Do I? No?

Oh, and I miss you so much that it's killing me.
Why can't I get you off my mindddddd?

2007-08-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

K. says:
i show u more fat pics of me

SHERYL says:
dont want

SHERYL says:
demoralise me

SHERYL says:
i last time thin now fat

SHERYL says:
u diff

SHERYL says:
dont wanttttttttt

THANKS SHERYL! :D
Hahaha, you're not fat but chubby.
Hehehe.

2007-08-15T01:11:00.000+08:00

You smell nice even when you're smelly.
Cause love know no boundaries.

2007-08-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

You should have told me from the start,
that this was never meant to last.
Then we wouldn't have gone this far.

Because it's harder to forget you.

2007-08-14T20:05:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking what I want to blog about.
Cause you see, there is nothing "happening" right now.
Well, except for today during lunch. One of the most
embarrassing moments ever. And I want to avoid the
whole thing and run away when I see them.

Pestan ( Pesta + Sukan ) is this saturday and sunday.
Skools Vs Storm, first match. Guess at what time?
TEN THIRTYYYYYYY AMMMMM!
Then 3 on 3 next saturday and sunday, I'm gonna make a
fool out of myself. S:

Cramps is killing me.
I don't understand why do the girls get it and the guys don't.
All they have to do is to "suffer" in army or what some says fun.
I hate cramps and I detest periods. I abhor it when it's during
training. Damn disgusting. %#&%^%^#%^
Walked around queens to get our jerseys done.
Went to look for my tennis humongous bag because
the nike one is breaking my right shoulder badly.

I can't wait for the trip. I'm gonna have so much fun with
the girls and OF COURSE they will definately have fun with me.
Well, I'm their kai xin guo. Hehehehe.
When I told Sheryl that I was not going, she was like sad la.
Don't deny cause I can see it from your eyes.
Don't worry, I'm going so you won't miss me :)
Hehehehe.

Okay, going to collect the jerseys now! WOOOOO.
RP ADROITS #6!

" I really wanted to see you. "
" And I know I cannot let it go. "

2007-08-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

I doubt you'll read this but,
I love you.

2007-08-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

Baby, it's what you put me through.
I miss your smell.
:(

2007-08-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

Cause I miss it when I don't talk to you for a few good mins
because of something stupid.
Cause I miss it when we talk.
Cause I miss your laughter.
Cause I miss irritating you.
Cause I missed out so much in you that,

I miss you.

If time didn't heal everything and if it made it worse,
then I'll stop trying to get to you.
But I'll be the air you breathe and I'll be your funniest man alive.
I'll let you irritate me for all time not because I feel you should
but because, it's what I miss and what keeps us going.

To what seems like 10 years of friendship,
I sincerly thank Him for bringing you to me.
It's the far most, best thing that even happened.

2007-08-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

Cause it will take much longer than the previous.
It's killing me in every literal sense that what seem to be
nonsense is getting more realistic.
And it hurts and you thought this never exsisted in me.

2007-08-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

Do you think of me as much as I do?

2007-08-10T12:33:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night, I imagined you with me.

2007-08-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

It always happens when night falls.

We could never turn back the hands of the clock,
we could never be as happy.
I thought of giving you the best and the most,
but I screwed it time and time again.
I want to give you what you deserve and everything you wanted.
I failed in every aspect to make you happier.
Nevertheless, you loved me unconditionally.

You're here when I close my eyes.
But I know I'm living a lie.

It's just this few days that I wish we could smile together again.
I want to see a message from you. But how will I react?
Happy? Excited? Shocked? Maybe nothing at all.
Afterall, I'm numbed.

I try but I can't deny.
How I wish I don't miss you.

2007-08-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

Hello there,

How are you? I miss you quite terribly.
I saw you that day and I kept looking at you.
But I just pretended that I didn't notice you were there.
I was hoping that you will look over but sigh.
I just wanna let you know that you're remembered.
Glad to see that you're fine and well :)
Take care of yourself and you're greatly missed and loved.

( To someone much more special than just girls and boys alone)

Always,
K

2007-08-04T01:44:00.000+08:00

Trainin yo

Snuggy!

Snuggy's co owner! Dinee!

Err. Hairin.... :S

ERRRR. Okayyyy.
I <3 this picture. I took it twice.

Gerri! :D

PeiPei :D

Rigel! :D
I still look as fat :(

J.U.M.P / Warcry

Philly and Gerri!

This is Joreen. The not cute.

Under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh!
Iyliee!

Sham, Joreen and Gerri!

This is for my week from Monday to Friday.
As you can see, all floorballers. My life revolves around floorball man.
More photos will be up soon once Sham send over. (The one in green.)

Happy Birthday Empress!
I love you and I'm gonna have breakfast with you at the Oriental!
(:

Goodnight!

Not just a physical attraction but something more

2007-08-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

SHERYL says:
i wanna be -.. oh gosh.

SHERYL says:
i cnat wear - now

K. says:
dnt eat lo

SHERYL says:
cnt la

HAHAHAHAHA! Thanks for cracking me up.
You're the second best :p

2007-08-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

Floorball did took my mind of her.
Inevitably, floorball can't always do the job.
Well, I can say that I did go through a rough patch.
I mean those who know me well enough will know that
I don't show how I feel inside especially when I'm depressed.
I'll accumulate it and then let it out when there is a need to.

It seems to me that it's weird, without you.

Sometimes, I wanna call you but I know you won't be there.
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I couldn't do.

I miss you.
And it's taking me over.

2007-08-01T01:31:00.000+08:00

Influence.

Hello, I miss you.
A lot.

Constantly.

2007-07-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

EDIT/

Because of Gerri's tag, I have to blog about the steamboat.
I went steamboating with Gerri, debbie and Philly.
That's all. HAHAHAHA.
Okay, seriously. We ate a lot. Philly ate more because I keep dumping
her food like she's some dumping ground. Hahaha.
We were so full and tired from eating. The food is really nice ar,
but I will abstain from eating steamboat until 1 month later.
It's too much for my stomach to handle.

Here Gerri, the steamboat post for you! :)

Few more hours before I jump with the minister.
The warcry singlet is seriously damn small.
So like when I wore it, it's naturally that everyone will laugh.
The school thinks that all girls are skinny and slim.
PLEASE! TALK TO THE FAT PEOPLE'S HANDS!
So today was a great day for me. The view I had was simply awesome! :)
WOOOOOO.

Went to train for about an hour cause like I'm getting rusty.
Knees hurt quite a bit today, it's time for more court training yo!

Enterprise module tomorrow which sucked because we have to wear formal.
Now I need to think of what to wear,
Anyways, I think I was damn bitchy today. I don't know why.
I really speak like one bitch. What's wrong man. Must be too high
due to over dosage of eyecandy! :)
I can see her tomorrow again! And just now she walked pass me,
we had eye contact! WOOOOOOOOOOOO! :) :) :) :) :) :)

Okay, I need to mix match clothes for tomorrow
and for the warcry jersey. You know, my arms are like humongous!
Need some shirt to cover it up, I hate being fat. Ugh.

How about me going bathe now?
How about okay?
How about BYEBYE! :)

And some bitch Punk'd me. You fucker la you cheebong!
HAHAHAHA. Shit, can't believe it!

Sweets to the eye,
but you're more than her.

2007-07-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

I woke up quite early considering the fact that I reached
home very early, at like 630am.
Went to ton with Debbie, Gerri, Yati and Philly.

So we met up at cineleisure and we didn't know what to do.
Debbie suggested to go to LJ to have supper. Talked, laughed and joked.
Sitting in front of Philly was tough because I had to handle eating my food
and laughing at her lameness.
Gerri joined us not long and we decided to see what movies were available.
Finally, after a few debates on what to watch we decided to settle on Knocked up.
Went to play cards and I swear all of them are damn funny.
Played Yati's version of snap and it's so funny especially Philly.
Her reactions were like one in a million. HAHAHAH.

Watched the movie and we went to have breakfast.
Walked all the way to Lido to have breakfast and to get cheated.
Hor Gerri and Philly? HAHAHA. Happy meal ain't the same anymore.
I was seriously damn tired, my eyes were like fighting to keep it open.

WOOOOOO. Finally we're going home and there were people
going to work at 6am but we are going home to sleep at 6.
How nice (:

Suppose to meet Hairin, Rigel and probably Yati in town at 330.
But I'm still at home blogging and Rigel's on the bus and I don't know
where Hairin is. Yati is still out with friends with NO sleep. Hahaha.
I think I'm gonna be late because I haven't bathe and also probably the
fact that I keep thinking town is only 10mins away.

Super boring entry.
You guys must have read it to kill boredom -_-
How about I go get ready now and meet them?
How about I'm quite lazy?
How about stop how abouting?
How about we use what about we use it's like?
0.0

Kk! I'll blog again when I'm freee. WOOOO, meeting the prime minister
on tuesday to JUMP.
How about I go now?
BYEBYE! (:

Still cannot accept the fact,
thinking about it pricks me.

2007-07-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

And then, she walked off,
Just when I thought this year is about to improve.

):

How about sadness overload? ):

2007-07-25T12:32:00.000+08:00

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

2007-07-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hello, no this blog is not dead yet. Anyway on behalf of Jiawen, Sherylthesweetesthang is right here to blog.
So days of my lives have been good, definitely better with Sheryl around. HAHA
Its been just Floorball, School & Sleep & more Floorball everyday.
Anyway. Lim Karmun, I really don't know what to blog.
However, a corn joke for you people out there.

where do you keep a corn?
in a corntainer.

where does a corn go to school?
a cornvent.

where does a corn need to study?
a corndusive environment.

why is the corn a criminal?
because it is a cornvict.

why are you rolling your eyes and saying all these corn jokes are lame?
because it's corny.

Do corns have knees?
good question.

HAHA I think its funny yo!

Yours truly signing off,
Sherylthesweetesthang =D

2007-07-16T01:26:00.001+08:00

Closer than before.
I thought there wasn't anything?
Doesn't seem like....

WOOOOO.

Hairin, I love you for your -
:)
See, I even blogged about it. Happy now!?

2007-07-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

I went threading with duck, rigel and sheryl.
WAH, damn painful for first timers can!
But now I look weird because my eyebrows have never been
so nicely shaped and clean. Hahaha.
So like, we wanna go for Brazillian wax too..... I think I will die.
Oh, the way sheryl react to painfulness of the threading is damn funny.
Me, duck and rigel keep laughing non stop. Like non stop hits. Hahah.

Head down to TP to watch match. We kept laughing at Boing.
Duck and sheryl laughed the loudest la. We kept disturbing everyone there actually.
AND AND AND AND, I saw this pretty girl or pretty girls. WOOOOOO.
But she got gf already ar and she is like andro. Wtfffff. She's really pretty.
The other one also pretty... But when I show duck, she say not pretty.
TMDDDDDDDD.

Gonna head down to RP later to watch the boys and others.

Duck order Mcflurry and it's tempting me.
Bitch! STOP ITTT! See you people later on for the match.

I'm dead tired so I'm gonna sleep.
Dammit! Eyebags like teabags.

PICTURES UP LATER/SOON/TOMORROW/WHEN I'M FREE

Am I suppose to be happy,
With all I ever wanted comes with a price.

2007-07-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

Figure. 09 says:
yes
Figure. 09 says:
but im also sleepy
Figure. 09 says:
and sleepy stronger than sian
Figure. 09 says:
so sleepy wins sian
Figure. 09 says:
so sleepy vs sian
1-0

K -_- /croak! says:
so someone stay at woodlands, can slp late la
K -_- /croak! says:
walao, like tht also can score

Figure. 09 says:
can la
Figure. 09 says:
late goal
Figure. 09 says:
haha!
Figure. 09 says:
get it?
Figure. 09 says:
LATE goal
Figure. 09 says:
coz its late alr?
Figure. 09 says:
hahaha

K -_- /croak! says:
i get it
K -_- /croak! says:
hahahha

Figure. 09 says:
wah lame-ness

K -_- /croak! says:
ure damn lameee!
K -_- /croak! says:
at night u cant walk lei

Figure. 09 says:
this is a strong indication that ive to sleep
Figure. 09 says:
very strong
Figure. 09 says:
like u know

K -_- /croak! says:
hmm yeah i think u shld too

Figure. 09 says:
pH 0.1

K -_- /croak! says:
first scoring now chemistry
K -_- /croak! says:
i wanna see what else u can include
K -_- /croak! says:
hahaha

Figure. 09 says:
nothing la
Figure. 09 says:
too acidic alr
Figure. 09 says:
even my stomach is growling

K -_- /croak! says:
im gonna blog about this

Figure. 09 says:
too much HCl plus my pH 0.1 strong indication
Figure. 09 says:
blog about what

K -_- /croak! says:
all these

Figure. 09 says:
wah lao how can

K -_- /croak! says:
sometimes i look at u and laugh and i look at your msn also laugh

Figure. 09 says:
cannot tell the world abt my 0.1

K -_- /croak! says:
ohhh go learn the woman's face
K -_- /croak! says:
i will!!

Figure. 09 says:
my spastic face not enough arh

K -_- /croak! says:
she only did one brow and the mouth

Figure. 09 says:
eh looks carefully
Figure. 09 says:
its two brows right

K -_- /croak! says:
the other one not so high
K -_- /croak! says:
so doesnt matter

Figure. 09 says:
thats coz of the angle of the shot la dumbdumb
Figure. 09 says:
you know
Figure. 09 says:
the angle like from the right side of her face
Figure. 09 says:
so the right brow like higher
Figure. 09 says:
the angle like 75 degrees

K -_- /croak! says:
HAIRIN! u dont have to like be so EXACT

Figure. 09 says:
round off alr to whole number

K -_- /croak! says:
OMG

Figure. 09 says:
actually its 74.7484

K -_- /croak! says:
this is making me laugh a lot
K -_- /croak! says:
im so gonna blog this

Figure. 09 says:
wah ehh

So here, Siti HAIRIN for you.

2007-07-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

- yo papa - * winterbells
This is Rigel's nick. For a moment I saw winterBALLS. HAHAHAH!

Suppose to go try team Rp singlet. But lazy ar. &^%$#%^$# My arms like shit can!
DAMMIT!

Upcoming activities:
BRAG (floorball), Ngee Ann City floorball 3 vs 3, friendly with NP,
POL-ITE (polite)
-_- /croak! Hahaha!

Yeah, that's basically about all la. As you can see, it's floorball again.
No training tomorrow due to campus relay. A short breather for us.

I don't think it's you, cause it's you

2007-07-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

I don't know whether I will regret putting this up here.
This is the furthest I'll go to let you know.
Sigh.

2007-07-10T09:43:00.000+08:00

This is very late. The rest have already done it but nevertheless....

I think this is really hot.........
WOOOOOO.

Sportsman/woman/whatever of the year: MISS HAZMINAAA!

This is what I call pretty woman!
HAHAHAHA.

2007-07-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Normal for now.....

Now, presenting to you the globber face!

And the ailen face!

Last but not least, I took this CLASSIC picture!
WOOOOOOO!

Went to watch matches with about half of the team.
Rp guys did well. Damn upset we didn't upset some people.
HAHAHA.
After that we went Cwp to have dinner.
Talked, laughed, joked and played.
Slept on the train. How I wish the ride was just a bit
longer cause I was sleeping so soundly until some man
kicked my leg. !#%^&*()(*&^% and woke me up.

There's training. Full blast for me. Wanna improve
quite a bit before POL-ITE. WOOOOOO.
K, I'm tired. Enjoy laughing at these photos.

Goodnight!

P.s More retarded pictures in Mw's (Meiwen) blog!

2007-07-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

If I stop blogging and stop updating my life,
will anyone remember me?

It suddenly dawned on me that whether I am
even remembered by anyone be it a friend
or an ex girlfriend. I happened to chance upon
this blog and when I read her entries, I felt that
she is so lucky because even though her schedule is
so tight, she and her friends are still close than ever.

I don't know. I think some "friends" erased me out of their
life for good. Am I that insignificant?
Well, at least I'm still in contact with gaya and probably zan.
I kinda like lost contact with shuwen and ame. Except for
that time when she called me for zan's laptop only.

So now the question is, who are my True friends?
Those who are around me most of the time or
those that who are around me when I need someone the most?
I think I have no true friends because the latter has never
happen to me. Isn't that sad. Ha.

But I guess this is karma back at me.
This is an emo post ar. It has since been long.

I suddenly thought of - too and it made me realize.
This are some of the wonders and miseries life can do to you.
And once again, it hurts.

I thought I had True friends until that happened.
Maybe Karmun, the only true friend you have is youself
cause one betrayed you in ways you thought she will never do.
Sad to say, human character changes and it could be drastic.

Done it once too many times. Don't expect
me to think it's simple when it's complicated.

Ohwells....

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There are loopholes in your entries.
Meeting Rigel and duck at 1115 and the rest at 1130.
I think I'm expecting some talking back.
WOOOOOOOO!

2007-07-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you

I'm feeling this cause you happened to me :)
Looking forward to everything that brings me to you.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2007-07-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

Floorball is tiring me out. Traning almost everyday.
I'm gonna be like a zombie soon.
Thank the air I breathe that it's a saturday today.

I didn't do well in today's game with Spore schools :(
The team was like not on form. I think everyone was tired.
Plus some of them still have club training later on.
Girls, hang in there. Be strong and overcome your tiredness.
You girls can do it yo! :)

After the game went to sports hall to watch match.
Then head down to macs and EAT. Shit man.
Then I dared Mw to be a dumb person since her voice
is about to deplete soon. Hahah. We actually asked Sheryl to do it
but that chubby cannot make it la. Oh, chubby because someone
called her that. HAHAH. So anyways, I went to do it.
Mw and Sheryl keep laughing and it's making it difficult for me
cause I wanted to laugh too. Hahaha. It was just too stupid and funny.
So duck said the next time we do it together. Hahaha. Busted sial.

I guess it's boring to read this entry. And if you read up till here,
I think you're really seriously bored. Hahah.
See, my life revolves around floorball. Floorball, floorball and more floorball.
Training is always fun la, there are people encouraging me.
Thanks for that man! I appreciate it, really.

I think all I have now with me from Monday to Friday is just floorball.
I've nothing else to say but more of trainings.
I really miss my friends. I don't even get to see Zan in school when
we are from the same school!
I miss you guys (shuwen,amelia,zan and gaya) so much. Sigh.
I'm sorry that I don't really have the time now. I'll make it up to
you guys one day. I don't want to promise. I don't want to
disappoint you guys. But I hope you four know that I didn't forget
anyone of you. You guys are still my top list and will always be.

Sorry gaya, for my attitude towards you early in the day.
I was moody and very tired. I'm sorry babe. Sigh.

Alright readers, I'm gonna sleep now cause apparently my eyes
are about to close typing this entry. I need the long sleep.
So see you Adroits on monday and my loves one day.
I hope the one day will come soon. Sorry, schedule is very tight.
:(

I'll be all you need and more.
Cause it's you who keeps me strong
but you don't know, you don't know

2007-07-03T14:58:00.001+08:00

If you're trying to say I'm putting it off then okay lo.
Whatever you say. Yeah, I'm selfish but I don't care. If
you can't take it then sorry lo. I say all these knowing it's
not true because it's fun yo.
It's not a crime to befriend her.

I don't care whether you are my friend anot.
You're not important like before.
I don't think it hurts, it's more like hatred.
Which part I say blogging about you? You
think my life only you me and faynat? Why would I bother?
Hahaha. Come on man.

:D

2007-07-03T09:46:00.001+08:00

I wanna be a movie director because I feel that
I can kill my audience with my movies.
HAHAHAHA.

Sheryl sucks. She made me buy the wrong milkshake and
caused me to have a stomach ache.
She sucked even more because she made me buy a DAMN
FATTENING VANILLA MILKSHAKE and I felt like
puking during training.
Therefore, Sheryl, it should be www.sherylsucks.com
HAHAHA. LAME.

Actually to be brutally honest, you two don't affect me
at all. Just that I say for the FUN of it. Up to you to believe yo.
I'm happy with life now, without you.
You can do without me as a friend (:
Since your last paragraph you said that it's up to you to choose
who you want to be your friend.
So, I get what you are trying to say. Yeap! :D

2007-07-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I'M SO USED TO IT. AS USUAL LA FUCK.

Hahahaha! Hello there!

2007-07-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

I got this from Phebz blog! :

5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1)Sherring wong.
2)Camille ang
3)Karmun
4)Nicole Au
5)Sophie

Stupid phebe. Hahah. My answers are gonna be weird.
Trust me.

1)put ur music player on shuffle
2)press forward for each question
3)use the song title as the answer for ur qsn, even if it doesnt make sense
4)tag 5 other people
5)bold the questions and the the answers and give ur own comments

how are you feeling today? That's when - Aslyn

how do your friends see u? More than words - Westlife
Woah!

will you get married? 4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
Wtf?

what is your best friend's theme song? Makes me wonder - Maroon 5

what is the story of ur life? Run away love - Ludacris feat Mary J. Blidge
No! Cannot run away!

what was primary school like? Don't matter - Akon
OMG. Phebz! Same as you!

how can you get ahead in life? The best I ever had - Vertical Horizon
:)

what is the best thing about your friends? The real me - Natalie Grant
The previous answer should be for this answer lo!

what is in stall for this weekend? Dakota - Stereophonics
True!

what song describes you? Everything - Michael Buble

describe your grandparents? Signal fire - Snow patrol
HAHAHAHA!

How is your life going? The L word theme song - by I don't know who.
-____-

how does the world see you? Hero - Maria Carey
WAHHH!

will you have a happy life? 1,2 step - Ciara

what does your friend really think of you? We are one tonight - Switchfoot

Do people secretly lust after you? Alright, the L word soundtrack - Kinnie Starr
Shit, this song is like.... lusting song. HAHAHA.

how can i make myself happy? Daughters - John Mayer
!?

What should you do with your life? Imagine me without you - Jaci Valasquez
I say already. Cannot imagine myselg without her and she cannot run away.

will you ever have children? Drop it like it's hot - Snoop Dogg feat Pharrell
!?!?!?!

5 people to do this
1) Sabrina
2) Amelia
3) Emily
4) Euphoria
5) Mary

HAHAHA. Finally done!

2007-07-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

You got me smiling day and night

It's already a sunday.

I woke up rather early yesterday considering
the fact that I don't have anything on.
Was suppose to meet up with Germaine, Kerri and Dee.
I gave it a missed because I was too tired.
Went home, walked around the house.
Walked towards my bed and sleep. The sleep is so shuang la.

Yesterday was not my day. I felt so moodless and emo.
I was afraid that she will know.....

Know why I blog? Cause I'm too free and too bored.
When I blog, no one tags lo. Wtf?
Okay, don't know what to blog about already.

Btw, I know I said I'm not emo already.
But my emo is not the sad kind, it's the
natural kind. Dammit. HAHAHA.

Goodnight to you.

I feel the difference

2007-06-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

I can't let you know that you form a part of me

Let me summarize my day.
Went to school.
Presented.
Went for training.
Home-d.

HAHAHA.
Let's skip with the school stuff cause it's dead boring.

Met Sheryl and co at W4. Slacked, talked and watch them eat.
Went to agora and got ready for training.
(Okay, I realise this part is boring.)
Anyways, we started doing drills. I was helping Sheryl
to cut down on her vulgarites cause if we're on court and
we spit any vulgarities then its 2 mins for us man.
So everytime she say any vulgarities, I'll make her slap
her mouth. Her slap like nowhere near hit la. Hahaha.

Then I told her that we could use N's name to cure our
swearing habits. Hahaha. At first, me and Sheryl were the
only one doing it. But don't know how come, Rigel and all
will start calling me N----!? I think I keep calling Sheryl
that name until she got so irritated. N's name is like
our vulgarity and random word la. Hahaha.
But Sheryl like la. I KNOW. HAHAH.

Went to eat with them and I was so tired at macs.
My eyes can hardly open man. Lack of sleep for the
past two days. Luckily, there's no training tomorrow
and I can sleep as long as I want!
My knees are hurting. There's this white thingy growing out.
It hurts like N man! HAHAH. Told you the name is a swearing name.
HAHAHA.

Shit, there are so many bumps on my knees.
Joreen! How come will like that!? Only my right knee
lei. Shit man. Disease. I'm gonna die, now.
HOW!?
And I don't know how those bruises come about on my leg?
There's protection but still got bruises.
Someone must have hate my right leg a lot.
All the injuries on that leg. N la! HAHA.

I'm really tired now and my eyebags weigh a ton.
I'm feeling emo now. As in I'm not sad. Like
suddenly emo. Sial la. Natural emo-ness.

Anyways, thanks for the song Sheryl. It's the nicest!
:) I keep putting it on repeat. Wah, his voice is superb!
I'm falling in love with his voice. And hello, you got Punk'd again! :p

Look around, sometimes I stare
I think back now and then, I hope you know I care
I walked away that day, trying to treat you right
But you were on your track, it was me turning back, I left you freezing outside

2007-06-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

The last time I saw you, you were prasing me.
I was planning to visit you again some time
and see whether I can get my art piece at a cheaper price.
I just didn't make it in time to see you, to talk to you.
When I thought back of how I was such a bitch
talking back to you and heck caring my work, it pricked.

If only you knew how much your death
affected me. That is if only you know. I regret.
I always regret. When our late principal passed away, I regret.
I can never be the good student any teacher wanted.
I regret not putting in so much more effort for our A1.
Your hard work was more than enough but mine was halved.
I should have put more hard work into my work.

Now, it's too late for regret. I hope you know I'm typing this.
I hope you didn't think that anyone of us hate you.
You're the best. Although your temper can get really bad.
But it's okay. We learnt to tolerate your temper for 3 years.
It has become a habit that we can predict when you will flare.

Rest in peace.
In loving memory of, Mrs L.

2007-06-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

I'm sleepy and tired.
I'm tired and sleepy.
I'm sleepy, tired.
I'm tired, sleepy.
I wanna sleep cause I'm tired.

Kkkkk, I'm bored.
Hello everyone reading this! :)
I can't wait for friday because I can sleep until saturday
afternoon and wake up and sleep back and wake up.

I have something to look forward to, I've got dunkin' donuts!

Eh, K is happy already! No more emo me sial :)
Please be happy for me! Or you prefer the damn emo me?
Anyways, I wanna keep my hair in the emo way.
Those kind all to the side and will tickle your eyes.
Any comments?

K is happy, K is happy, K is happy.

I wanna move us like tango :)

2007-06-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Today's training was enjoyable.
Although it was tiring but I find it so fun
and I feel myself as part of the Adriots family :)
Today was just super hilarious. The team members
are the funniest bunch of people off court.

I have more injuries than on friday. My right
hand has the shape of the ball, my left
hand has this long red line. Okay, nevermind.
My right knee has a bruise and a split cut and
my left knee has a bruise. When S shoot, her ball
hit my throat. Pain like anything man. Okay, nevermind.
Get used to it man. It's normal :(

I need to get contacts and a damn big bag.
I need it urgently. I'm gonna shop for that big
bag soon. Hopefully those tennis bags.
Okay, enough of trainings and bags.

There's a test tomorrow. I'm half prepared for it.
It just rained. Rained. Rained. Sigh.
Okay, gotta go off now! I need to wake up early.
I've got panda eyes now. Even uglier than what I am.

I miss your voice singing to me,
More than words and lips of an angel.
It was just last week you sang to me
and it feels like forever.
I can't keep myself strong without you,
it's time to come home baby. It's time.

2007-06-24T17:21:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-06-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

001. Real name:
Lim Kar Mun.

002. Nickname:
Fatty?

003. Are you married:
No.

004. Horoscope:
Scorpio.

005. Male or female:
A mixture of both.

006. Elementary:
Soka kindergarten.

007. Middle:
St. Margarets.

008. Highschool:
St Margarets.

010. Hair color:
Black with a tad of brown.

011. Long or short:
Middle.

015. Are you a health freak:
I think so.

016. Height:
Middle.

017. Do you have a crush on someone:
Should be.

018. Do you like yourself:
Sometimes.

019. Piercings:
Ears. I want one on the lip.

020. Tattoos:
None but soon.

021. Righty or lefty:
Righty.

FIRSTS:

022. First surgery:
I can't remember when but it was
when Rocky bit me in the eye. Not exactly
a surgery. Stitching.

023. First piercing:
Around 5 years old.

24. First best friend:
Huang Shu Wen

025. First award received in:
Good progress award. Primary six!

26. First sport you joined:
Netball.

027. First pet:
Hamster.

028. First vacation:
Malaysia.

029. First concert:
Some school band concert.

030. First crush in:
Primary three!

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating:
Nothing.

050. Drinking:
Nothing.

052. I'm about to:
Continuing answering all these questions.

055. Waiting for:
Someone's message.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids:
Of course.

059. Want to get married:
Definitely.

060. Careers in mind:
Events coordinator.

068. Lips or eyes:
Lips.

069. Hugs or kisses:
Kisses.

070. Shorter or taller:
Depends on which sex.

072. Romantic or spontaneous:
Romantic.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Both?

074. Sensitive or loud:
Sensitive.

075. Hook-up or relationship:
Relationship.

-Where's 76!?

077. Trouble-maker or hesitant:
None.

HAVE YOU EVER:

078. Kissed a stranger:
No.

079. Drank bubbles:
APA?

080. Lost glasses/contacts:
Yes.

081. Ran away from home:
Was about to.

084. Broken someone's heart:
Yes.

085. Been arrested:
No.

086. Turned someone down:
Yes.

087. Cried when someone died:
Of course!

088. Liked a friend:
Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself:
Sometimes.

090. Miracles:
I don't know.

091. Love at first sight:
No.

092. Heaven:
Maybe.

093. Santa claus:
No.

094. Sex on first date:
No.

096. Angel:
No.

097. Ghost :
Maybe.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

098. Is there one person you want tobe with right now?:
YES. I MISS HER. Sigh.

099. Had more than oneboyfriend/girlfriend at one time?:
Never.

100. Do you believe in God?:
No.

101. Will you post this as "101Truths"?:
Why not?

2007-06-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

How not to think likewise when you featured her?
It's like saying there isn't anything but showing me
there is something. Saying you are not close but
showing you are by featuring her.
Then why would you feature her? No other reasons
than getting closer aint it?

2007-06-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

WHY ARE MY GOOD FRIENDS ALL FAILING MY TEST!?
Is my test that difficult? The highest is only 50!?
Try to think of me as more hardworking and guai-er.
Then maybe you'll pass even higher marks. HAHAH.
Please know I'm quite lame too. So.... hinted already!
I can't give anymore hints. Too obvious.
Think of me different, think of me as someone who
REGRETED once. Hint to the maximum already.

2007-06-22T10:46:00.000+08:00

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

2007-06-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

This is my perfect way of ending it.

Remember,
stab, twist and stab.
That's how I'm feeling.

2007-06-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

Don't act like you're fucking affected.
You're not. Totally not.

2007-06-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

Totally ignoring me for her.
See, I'm not wrong. You proved me right.

2007-06-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

Who do you belong?
The answer is clearly obvious.

I see your name appearing around them.
It's, as usual.

2007-06-20T10:37:00.001+08:00

I don't believe what you said in that paragraph.

2007-06-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

After so long, really long,
I still can't stop missing and reminiscing.

School's starting tomorrow, I dread it.
Training tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it.
It's yet another emo day.
Damn emo. Wanna know why?
Don't tell you.
HAHAHAHAHEHEHAHAHAI.
Sigh.

My Ipod is not helping me to feel better too.
It has been on shuffle for about ten mins,
all the depressing emo songs are being played.
I'm gonna press next and see what song is next.

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The link is right there on the right. Girl's Paradise

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Bloody hell,
When I'm missing you - A1
My Ipod is playing a joke on me man.
Okay, I'm gonna go off and be emo and stare out
at the window and smoke and cry and.....
laugh. HAHAHAHEHEHAHAHAI.
Crazy.

And I know its late but I'm waiting,
For the moment that I've been anticipating.
And I signal u to go where it will take us, I don't know

那一天的我们，我会微笑的很久。

2007-06-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hello faithful readers! (If I have any)
I was so damn tired today so I managed to drag
myself outta bed at about twelve plus going one.
Nad was damn tired too. She kept sleeping back
and she was hell cold. When she touched me with her
hands I was like "Okay! I'm giving you the blanket!"

Anyways, we left house at like... I can't remember la.
Cabbed down to Boon Keng to meet my dearest whiniest JAC.
Then cabbed to Tpy. Went to EAT Long Johns.
I gave my chicken to Nad. I felt so happy when I gave it to her
because I really feel so full and bloated.
Head back to bugis to meet kerrie cause she text me and asked
whether I wanna go with her to alter jeans. I can only collect it
tomorrow. Tskt, THE UNCLE LA! Okay, nevermind.

Then went back to bugis junction to visit sab, left after a while.
Head down to Vivo to meet Cherisa. Talked for quite a bit and
left to meet mum! ATE at Crystal Jade (CJ), I was craving for XLB
so badly and when I finally reached CJ... It was the moscow
one not the chinese one! I ATE until I nearly puked all that I ate.
I still feel so damn bloated now. Me and mum went to shop for
father's day gift. Bought him a timberland wallet.
It was 99$! I paid for it and went to shop for my own.
Bought Everlast sneakers, it was damn cheap la and bought
this pullover. SUPER CHEAP.

(Pictures another day!)

I sound damn happy in my entry right?
No, today is my emo day. It's one of the bad emo days.
Listening to songs that actually make my heart ached.
Walao, cliche lei. Hahaha.
Sigh. I'm very depressed now!
I can literally feel the pain, that itch, that stab in my heart.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
K is very very depressed/sad/wanna cry/whatever.
Please try your outmost best to make her happy.

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Okay, I really feel like crying. If I talk to you online and
I'm haha-ing, don't believe it. Hahahah.

我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你。

2007-06-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

Guess what? Training wasn't that bad, I mean
it was dead tiring but it wasn't as bad as I thought it
would be. But for a moment I nearly cried while doing the
drills. I felt that I couldn't be as good as the others.
One word, STRESS.
Then when it comes to playing against Meridien JC, I
felt so much better. I was told by the seniors to play rough.
Okay, so rough I go! Hahaha.
Training on Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
Wednesday having friendly with Team Singapore or some
Singapore club. Along that line.

That's very long about training huh. Hahaha.
Went to eat with Emily at causeway point. OMG!
EAT.. KFC SOMEMORE. Okay, tomorrow cannot eat.
I've already eat tomorrow's share. Sigh. I'm a glutton!

My feet damn itchy. Must be the shoes. No wait, must be
some insect. Maybe my leg is smelly. No lei, quite nice smelling.
HAHAHAHHEHEHAHAI.
Gaya was saying I'm the epitome of Emo. I was like yah, true.
Know why? Look at the crazy laughter. Check the last three words.
HAI = Sigh = Sad = Emo
SEE SEE! Tskt....

Nad came over, she is here already. She's disturbing Sab.
As usual, Sab is THE pig and Nad is disturbing her.
Giving excuses that she need to wake up at nine.
I SLEEP AT 4AM AND WAKE UP AT NINE OKAY!
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Actually I'm damn lazy to blog but for J, I will.
For her to read since she comes my blog everyday as
claimed by her. Hahaha. She doesn't tag and she sucks
cause of that! J! You suck! You suck cock lick pussy!
HAHAHAHAHEHEHAHAI. Okay, I still love you :)

My fingers are getting tired from all that typing.
I'm gonna go off now and talk to Nad. Happy reading
this damn boring post. J, now you can read :)

You're my resolution

2007-06-15T14:54:00.000+08:00

Training in about two hours time.
I can and can't wait.
I can feel butterflies in my stomach.
Sigh.

I hope everything will turn out much better
than I thought. Will blog again once I am back
from training. That is if I have the energy to.
Hahahahaha. Yeap! See all of you soon :)

2007-06-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

Peektures!
(Just for the sake of it, sigh)

Let me present to you,
the most.......... Nevermind
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What are you looking at?! I'm an ah beng,
spam my blog and you die.. dieeeee!

Like I said, for the sake of posting pictures,

SARAH SAM!

Carry on....

Her expression when she asked me whether I

smoked in the room yesterday.

Well, here's a picture post. I know it sucks la.

I really don't want you readers to get bored.

That is if I have readers anyways. Today simply sucked

I found out how tough was training and I can die of

heart attack seriously! Combine trainings with the seniors

scares me. What if they are damn proud? What if they talk

behind your back? HOWWWWWWWW!!!?

There's a game tomorrow and I don't know how to handle

the stick. I didn't go for training for so long already! (two weeks)

What if my playing skills sucked even more!?

I'M SO FUCKING NERVOUS.

My mood is screwed today.

Inside out, outside in,

I'm desperate to know you so much better

2007-06-14T11:54:00.000+08:00

I think I am obssessed with myself. In a day,
I can read my entries over and over again.
I think one of my top website is my blog. Hahah.
Okay, after publishing this post I'm gonna read what I blogged.
HA.

Outing with En cancelled :(
D, I hope you can trust En. Even if you don't,
at least trust me. Cause she's my good friend
and nothing more. We're clean.

It's still early in the day so I think I might blog again.
That is if I have something to blog about.
I can literally feel myself rotting away and getting so
bored until I have to resort to sleeping or counting my
hours away to the next day.
Shit, there's training tomorrow and I haven't been going.
I bet my stamina dropped. Sigh. I'm sucha bummer.

Nad's staying over tomorrow, I haven't seen her for so long.
I'm glad we can catch up tomorrow. Let's hope she won't
fall asleep on me like what sab did yesterday! >:(
She falls asleep in a minute man...... Pig.

It's so wordy again.

Realise I didn't talk about babe?
Uh, well I just did but........ Nevermind.
I should really stop calling her babe, she said that
one more time I call her babe she's not gonna reply me!
Okay, no babe......

Silly, yeah! I shall call her silly cause she really is.
(See, can't control myself. Once I start, I never stops)

Something unexplainable

2007-06-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

After a long time, this is the second time i blog
again in a day. I think history will repeat itself again.
Why? Like I blog a lot this few days then I'll stop
completely again. As usual huh. HA.

Three weeks of bumming around at home and out,
it's time to go back to school. Time to face backstabbing,
quarrels amongst each other, politics and most importantly
the waking up part. The most difficult part of the whole process.
Know why? Because I sleep at five almost everyday and
wake up at nine to find myself staring blankly, realising I can't
sleep back anymore. I'm tired and I can't sleep. I think I can
go to the zoo and blend in with the pandas.
I can feel the weight of my eyebags adding on to my initial weight......
Sigh.

I'll be going out tomorrow with En again.
Because Gaya decided to be a good girl and study. (She should)
En told me to call/text her if I'm not going out with my Gaya.
This time we must take pictures, then I can make my post
a pictorial post instead of this. Isn't it wordy? Hahah.

Babe is doing her work/studying now.

I placed my black spiderman light chain near my phone.
I want to see the light lit up. I know it's kinda stupid,
because I can just make it on a sound mode or vib mode.
But I'm anticipating for her message and getting myself all excited.
For all I know, she's asleep already.
Well......

Shit, I ate a lot today.
- Cup noodles for lunch ( I didnt finished it)
- Some bento rice thingy for dinner

I told myself I can't eat after 6pm, (Yeah, I had dinner at 5pm)
but guess what........ I drank milk tea for supper!
I'm feeling the guilty pang now. I've been eating one meal per day
for two weeks and I totally just broke the cycle!
I think it helps, like the cup noodles.
Normally, I would just finished the whole thing. But today,
I don't have the appetite. Not only today but for the past
two weeks. I get hungry easily but not anymore. I don't have
the appetite for food anymore.
Like, one meal a day is enough but today....... UGH!

You're worth every single second of me

2007-06-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogging! Everyone! I'm backkkk!!!

Anyways, I don't understand why babe must sleep so much.
She has been sleeping since this morning.
Doesn't she knows that I'm a bit deprived of talkin to her?
All she does is to sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep and sleep!

Wait, there's a possibility that she's lazy to call me, not
forgetting she might be eating.......
Stop doing whatever and call me now or at least text me and
tell me you're awake but you're still tired!

I've waited for very long and I'm getting impatient!
I called twice already and babe still hasn't pick up!
Babe doesn't like me to call her babe because she said
it's just not her. But I don't care! Babe, babe, babe.... BABE!

People! You know what!? Babe just called me!
She sounds damn tired and... SEXY. You know the
morning kinda voice. HAHAHAHAH.
Alright, I'm gonna talk to babe now while you people
get goosebumps reading this entry. HAHAHA.

2007-06-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm bored, so I decided to blog.
I doubt anyone will know I've updated. HA.
At this time, I would have been hogging the phone
for hours talking to her but she's asleep now :(
Anyways, I changed my font color! Because I didn't want
it to look so emosified. HAHAHA.
Uh, but we shall see.

Anyways, like I said I didn't wanna town and I didn't
until two days back when I met up with En.
I'm not deaf! You speak too softly that I can hardly
make out what you were trying to say.
And I forgot to take a picture with you! :(
En, the next time we meet again we must take a picture okay?

Yesterday, I thought of her and started feeling depressed.
(Uh, see see! I start again!)
I thought of how she didn't liked me as a friend and
whether I was even her friend to start off with.
This feeling really sucks. I doubt she'll know its her
I'm talking about. She ain't close to me but... ohwells.
( I think emo is me, how!?)

I wish I could know what you are thinking.
The night's magic just vanished,
and I just want something familiar.

The difference kills

P.S I'm really lazy to reply tags.
P.P.S Don't give up on tagging me, I will reply newer ones :p

2007-06-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

I decided to delete the last post cause
I realised I didn't mean it at all.
I hope you haven't seen it. Please.

Patience is a virtue, so I'm gonna
cultivate that damned virtue.

But now, I'm not given a chance anymore am I?
Do you really can't be bothered?
Cause I bother.
Whatever la, not like you'll - me.
I can't find the word to suit that sentence.

Yes, I'm at fault.
Ame, you're right. I caused the hurt in her and me.
Sometimes I ought to shoot myself for taking advantage
of my friends.

2007-06-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

If anyone hasn't hate me enough,
please go to www.nicolechristineau.blogspot.com
to hate me more. Thank you.
No, I'm not blaming her. I want you guys to know
what kind of a person I am. I'm not shaming her,
I'm shaming myself. Ha.

The feeling of people treating me differently
because of what happened is just simply,
let's put it this way, unexplainable.
Cause people judge me, they judge me like they're
some judges for Sinagapore idol. HAHAHH! Lame.
Yeah yeah, because I'm Karmun, everything i do wrong,
be it something minor is wrong and hatable.
When I do something right/nice/whatever, nobody notice it
and that's because people have the mindset that
I'm already some bad person. Some emo shit that
blogs nothing but emo stuff. HAHAHA. I'm a emo kid.
Blahblahblahblahyadayadayadayada.
HAHAHAHAH. -_-

- said, it takes many years to build a friendship
but it takes only a day to crush it.
How true.

You left me memories to reminisce.
Thank you. That was the best present ever.
Don't take it back from me,
cause that is what I need most from you.

2007-06-01T03:50:00.000+08:00

Maybe when the time comes,
I'll be gone for good.
They say true love dies,
best friends last.
For me,
Both died.

Applause for me, for being suck a fuck.
I don't realise the consequences that I had caused.
But right now, things have gotten worse.
So it's time for me to be alone,
it's time for you to find some soul.
I can only watch from where I am.
As long as you're happy, I'm happy.
Hey, true love from me to you....
Never dies. If it makes you happier or makes
you hate me more by not talking to me.
I rather you. Cos you're too good for me,
I can't hurt you anymore. You had enough.
I was just being a selfish fuck.
I'm sorry Nicole, this isn't what I wanted.

She's the victim,
I'm the murderer.

Everyone, please hate me more than you do now.

2007-05-31T02:15:00.000+08:00

Will you take me home,
Will you take me home.
How long must I wait,
for you to bring me home?

I'll wait even if it takes years,
for you to take me home.
My confidant, I miss you.

2007-05-30T14:18:00.000+08:00

Zaty thought we will only take one nice picture

and that's all but....

HAHAHAH!

Germaine started doing her touching tits thing

Please, check out Zaty's face. PLEASE.

Zaty's laughing fits

This is funny!

I failed my fucking test, fucking test.

My grandmother is sick :(

I was right, year 2007 is suckshit for me.

Sometimes when things drag for too long,

it won't have the same importance anymore.

I guess I'm not of your importance.

It's the hardest to get your forgiveness,

it's even harder to get you back.

Maybe that's why people call us best friends.

Since you're adamant in not talking to me,

I'll let you be that way since you're happier that

way. Take care, I love you.

I knew that if you were here,

everything will be alright.

But you're not.

Goodbye is not what i wanted,

it's the hardest from me to you.

2007-05-29T13:08:00.000+08:00

........

How can anyone resist Elle? (:

:O cherisa finally took a photo.

Get what I mean?

HAHAHAHAH!

Sorry Elle, to rush this post for you I
can't cover "IT" up.

Me and.... err, Elle.

Okay, everyone. Check Elle out :

I don't know what to say about her anymore.
Seriously.

I realised that I'm not that much of a whore,
Elle is. Camwhore whore. HAHAHA.

2007-05-27T16:03:00.001+08:00

I know I have let you down so many times.
So just ignore me for good cause I'm not worth
to be the best friend you're looking for.
I can't be bothered anymore cause I was the one who
let you down. Although it's affecting me a lot I can't help it.
Till the extend that I'm numbed.
How depressed I was that you're not talking to me,
has turned into a used to it feeling. It's that bad
So, just don't talk to me.
Not like you are talking to me now.

I told you things would be different.

~~I hate how much~~ I miss you

2007-05-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,
I went centre point to see YL.
I was like searching for her in the restaurant
and finally I saw her! :D :D :D :D
She saw me and smiled! :D :D :D :D :D :D
At that moment, my heart was in a whirlpool
my face was lited up. I was no longer tired,
I just wanted to see her more.

Sadly, I have to leave soon so I took a quick
glance before leaving. Now, I can't wait for tmr!
BECAUSE I CAN SEE HER AGAIN! :) :) :) :) :)

So, after that we hang around in town.
I didn't wanna go town cause I was feeling emo.
HAHAH. That was according to Gaya.
We were slacking at burger king's and Gaya told us
about her math teacher!
I tell you Gaya can be the next him! He's so funny
especially his voice.

Yesterday was just super hilarious.
Then Elle came to meet us with her friend.
Went over to karen's and talked.
Left at about 12 plus and I was so tired.

Painted on, life is behind the mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess i've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still i see somehow

2007-05-26T14:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, after training, me and Germaine
stayed back in school to do our assignments.
Zaty and Farhana came to join us and we camwhored.
The pictures are seriously damn funny. Especially Germaine
and Zaty.

Anyways, all of us know that Zaty have such melodious
voice so we asked her to sing. It was really nice until me
and Germaine decided that we could do so much more.
HAHA. As expected, we were off key.
So while walking to the station we were singing and,

Me: Zaty, sing something.
Zaty: What you want me to sing?
Me and Germaine: Anything la.

So Zaty sang something which have the word crazy in it.

Germaine: Oh! You know the song, You drive me crazzzy!?
- she began singing
Germaine: You drive me crazy and I'm in too deep,
MY HEART IS THUMPING AND I JUST CAN'T SEE.

Zaty, Farhana and me laughed like mad ok!
What is my heart is thumping and I just can't see!?
HAHAHA.
So we began to sing Britney's songs and we were still laughing.
I think Germaine is a bit crazy already because of VVVVVV!

Anyways, training was fantastic cause I saw -
I don't know her name :(
How sad. Anyways, yesterday was really my day.
Except that YL didn't come to school.
Other than that, I'm a happy K :)

Eyecandies are for my eyes,
But you are for me.
J, I love you

2007-05-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

I think we are not best friends anymore.
Oh, so you've been talking to her.
I SEE.
I think you clearly forgot that you're
not talking to me when I'm trying so hard.
I guess you won't be back too or when you're
back, things will be different.
I can bet you, things will be different.
Don't bother, go and be in their circle of friends.
You don't need me.

:(
She didn't come school today!
Her hostel is in school!
Why she so lazy!? :( :( :(
I wanna go over her place later.

Don't worry I still love you J.
A lot in fact.
And I'm so jealous that you're shopping now.
I wanna shop too!

Things have gotten out of hand,
And I can't stop it now.
I love you more each day,
And each day is a torture without you.
We can create mircales,
If you were to put your hand on mine.
I'll go any measures to make you happy,
Cos I'm yours and You're mine.

That smile on your face,
I'll never forget.
I'll put that smile up,
Forever.
I love you.

2007-05-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

Dear My somebody,

I want to be there when you're happy,
I want to see you play your dirty sport.
I can't go on without you in my world.
I want to be yours, girl.
I just want to spend the night with you.

Don't fret that I'll leave,
cause you know I'll never.
Barely three weeks made me
over infactuated with you.
This must be love.

I want your life to be my life,
I want my life to be you r life.
You make me smile like none other.
When I think of you, I smile.
This really must be love.

Can I take your hand and lead the way,
the way where nothing else matters.
Where we will be euphoric at the
presence of each other.
This is really love.
:)

On a random note, I didn't know Amelia
knew about it long ago :O

2007-05-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

Even Peter Parker forgave Flint Marko,
when Marko asked for his forgivness.
Harry osborne forgive Peter Parker.

If you're wondering why am I saying this
then let me tell you. This show do have a message
for its audience, which is to forgive and forget.
No, I didn't make it up myself. The director said
in the papers.

Forgive and forget.
Then only you will find life have a meaning.
Because only then you will stop thinking of the
past. This is not directed to anyone in particular.
It just struck me.

2007-05-21T12:24:00.000+08:00

I make many mistakes in my life.
Some mistakes are minute and some are
major. People throughout make mistakes
and they are forgiven because those whom they
hurt and cheated forgive them because they believe
that they will change. I know I've hurt
too many people to count with my ten fingers but
I only hope that they will forgive me. I want your
forgiveness, I don't want anybody to look at me in
a different way. Do you like people looking at you
in way as though you've committed a serious crime?

If I'm able to blog this out, I'm sure ya'll can be
assured that all the mistakes I've done will not be
repeated again. You see, I wanna be responsible for
what I'm doing. I don't want people to call me childish
and whatnot because I'm not. I really want to have a
real good image in everyone's mind. I'm not bad, I'm
not mean, I'm just someone who needs attention.
It's true. Think about it. Would I have lie about those
if I didn't need attention? Yes, I indicated that I lied.

See what I mean now? I put those shameful things I did
up here. IT'S NOT TO GAIN SYMPATHY, IT'S NOT
TO MAKE ME SEEM AS THOUGH I'M DAMN POOR
THING. It's to show everyone, including my friends
what kind of person I am. Because I'm ashamed of it,
I want to change that. If you still think that I don't deserve
your forgiveness then let me tell you this,

If those people whom I've hurt and cheated or cheated didn't
matter to me, be it an ex girlfriend or a friend that I've lost,
I wouldn't be affected. I wouldn't be blogging this whole
damn thing out. I wouldn't wanna assure people, I would have
just not care and carry on with my life. But I'm doing this to
show those that I'm sincere this time in saying my sorry.
If you're that kinda person who don't mind losing me as
a friend or don't bother whether I'm your friend or not
then you would have bother coming here at all.

I'm someone who treasure my friends most.
That was why I realised I was so irresponsible
for breaking up the friendship I had with my friends.
I didn't thought for them and I even thought what I
did was right.
How wrong I was.
Even if you're someone I don't talk to most of the time,
you got to know that I really treasure every single one
of you as a friend. Just that I don't show it. So, here
I am trying my best to tell/assure you that all those
shits won't happen again.

If it pains you to forgive me, if you don't really care
whether I'm really your friend, I'M SORRY.
I'm sorry for being so un-tolerable. (if there's such
a word) Don't think I don't treat you as a friend
even if you don't forgive me. Because there are some
people whom I've hurt/cheated that I really want to
talk to. I see them online everyday but I can't talk to
them and tell them, " hey friend, I miss you."
You know who you are. There are two or three people in
my contact list that I really want to tell this too.

Do you believe I will mend my ways?
K says she's sorry. She knows she's in the wrong.
Will you forgive me? Please?

2007-05-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

People, go read G's blog.
She's the sweetest girlfriend one can have.

2007-05-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

Liars are not hot.
And nicole, I want you back,
I want Shuwen, Gaya, Ame and Zan.
Cos you know what?
I was wrong, I was sucha fool and thank god
that i saw something that make me realise I
was so being an ass.
But if you guys don't want me back, I get.
I get.

2007-05-20T01:18:00.000+08:00

I love them. So much so that i still miss them even
when I'm with them.

Ame, do you rmb how I will always ask you if you're
okay everytime you look moody?
Do you remember that I always take your camera
and take self-potraits and you'll just give up snatching
the camera away? Cos I'm way too big for you?
Then you'll be in the whatever mode and praying hard
that your camera battery will go flat soon so that you
can save it from me? Remember how I always smack
your ass then hurrily run away? Remember I said that
your handwriting is nice but small? Remember when
zan sleep then we will hit the table to scare her?
Remember how we always need to do our english
journal and you'll always only write three lines or less?
Remember you always slap my head and your head?

Gaya, do you remember that we used to have late
night talks till two three am in the morning?
Just fantasizing things that will never come true.
Remember how I used to tell you to pin her down
and drug her coke so that you can have her?
And we will laugh it off cos all these will never happen.
Remember how I irritated you continuously until you
wanted to try to irritate me but failed? Remember how
we talk like nobody business during english?
Remember how you made me buy milo because
you were hungry? Remember we tied our hair together
and act all girly in school? Remember how we fail math?
Remember how we get the same marks for math and
got the highest? Remember how mdm Y scold you and
say you're attracting attention? Remember how I always
get you into trouble with mdm Y? Remember we finally
thought math was fun?

Nicole, do you still have the tissue paper? The first one
we wrote at macs and was regarded top secret and confidential?
Because what we wrote inside was so shocking that only we
knew? Remember you told me not to talk about her
anymore because you scared you fell for her and I laughed
until I almost died cos you said that? Do you remember
every sunday was our lao couple day until my mum
suggested that it's family day? Do you remember that
you once told me a top secret and I can't tell anybody
or else I that's it? Do you remember how we will
laugh like shit when we talk about her? How we
will push her to each other and say, " your girlfriend"?
Remember how I tease you and will always tell you
I tell her? Remember Macdonalds? Remember
Starbucks? Remember sorry? Remember how I told
you I love you? Remember that you said it was gross
to hug me? Remember you're fatter than me?
Remember how I say, "so fat!" and then run away
after saying that? Remember how we will quarrel
over who's fatter and it's obvious its you?
Remember how we walk around town so that we
can see whoever? Remember whatever I remember?
Do you even remember me?

Shuwen, do you remember how I was sucha
act cute last time? But you'll still love it?
Remember how we tease *ahem?
Remember I always go your house? Remember we
always go school together? Remember we have to
cheong for art together? Remember how we will just
look at each other and just laugh? Remember we sat
beside each other in class for two years? Remember how
we fucking fought? Remember you always wear coloured
bra and I try ways and means for you to get found out?
Remember how you always msg in class and then I will
purposely wanna bao tou you? Remember how I will snatch
your food and eat it up?

Zaneta, remember you are not ah lian. Remember how
you make me have the -_- face? Remember how I scolded
you? Remember how we talk in our own unique language?
Remember how your uh na-s make me and nicole feel like
strangling you? Remember how you always irritate?
Remember when you were down and I was talking to you?
Remember how I told you to be happy? Remember how
you said you will always be there for me no matter what?
Remember how we act lian and beng together but always
deny the fact? Remember how we always say nicole is the
beng? Remember you bought me sardin bread when you
were sec two? Remember you yourself told me that
you were a corrupted prefect? Remember me telling you
that your face itself is already funny?

Yknow, I miss all of you so much.
I'm so dumb to have made such a decision.
What I have now are photos of ya'll not forgetting
the memories. These, I will never forget.
But now I don't have you guys anymore.
This is hurting. I'm sorry to make all of you
angry. I cried and cried and cried hoping that
the next day will be a better day. But i wake
up to feel even more loneliness cos I'm without
anyone. I love you Amelia, I love you Gayathri,
I love you Nicole, I love you Shuwen and I love
you Zaneta. I love the five of you. A LOT A LOT.

Now, you see. What you told me in a message caused
this? I know, this is all my doing. But if you hadn't told
me whatever then all these wouldn't have happened.
Are you happier now to see me like this? I'm not blaming
you, I just want you to think before you say anything.
Cos some things are sensitive issues. Especially when it's
about my friends.
Now, go laugh at me for being the biggest joke you've
ever met. You got what you wanted, so be happy that
things are the way it is. There's no need to feel
remorseful cos I know you won't. There's no guilt in you.
Cos if you're thoughtful, you wouldn't talk about my
friends. Go on, laugh at me. Ask your friends to join in too
if they're not in it. Really got to hand it to you.

2007-05-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

Omg,
I'm tearing.

what gaya said was true, this is karma.
I took the whole situation into my own, I didn't
think for anyone. I shouldn't blame anybody for
this, I should blame myself. It was all my own doing.
I'm sorry, I don't know how many sorry-s I say can cure
but I know it wouldn't at all. But I still will love ya'll
unconditonally. I really will.

And now I'll say, will you be mine?

2007-05-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

Although the conversation was short,
Two minutes and fifty two seconds to be exact.
When I finally did hear you after so long, i can't help
But just to smile to myself.
Though it sounded like you wanted to end the
Conversation as fast as you could but that didn't matter.
Because it beats not hearing you at all.

My heart is beating so fast.
It must be her doing again :)

I learnt the art of smiling to myself

2007-05-18T09:51:00.000+08:00

I thought I was too sensitive,
But now I'm deemed as insensitive?

What I did wasn't on purpose,
I wanted to change for the better but now,
By doing this I'm actually faced with people telling me
I'm wrong? Just to let everyone know, by leaving my
Good friends hurt me more because I'm the one intiating
It. Have you ever thought about it? That you all will be
hurt because of me. But have you thought the same for me?
That being the one that intiates it will be the one that will be
Hurt most.

It's okay, I don't think anyone will understand the situation I
Am in. Because no one get what I'm going through.
Yeah, I'm in the wrong for doing so.
I'm sorry, doubt ya'll will accept this. I understand,
I was the one who put ya'll into this shit too. I guess it doesn't matter.

I hope this will bring me back to you,
Our sunday mornings.

2007-05-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hello!
As you can see I'm updating again :O

Pride, will hurt you says:
Karmun Lim
K says:
yes?
K says:
i got you already la
Pride, will hurt you says:
No no
Pride, will hurt you says:
I was going to ask you something else
K says:
yeah?
Pride, will hurt you says:
Why did you type so weirdly just now,
Pride, will hurt you says:
like in the afternoon
Pride, will hurt you says:
that was just sick
Pride, will hurt you says:
seriously
K says:
I just wanna irritate
Pride, will hurt you says:
ha ha ha ha
Pride, will hurt you says:
For a moment,
Pride, will hurt you says:
I thought you were possessed
K says:
CHOY
Pride, will hurt you says:
or like some weird friend of yours
Pride, will hurt you says:
invaded your notebook
K says:
hahah
K says:
cant u see its purposely?
Pride, will hurt you says:
No I can't
Pride, will hurt you says:
keep up the good work for that natural skill
Pride, will hurt you says:
I think you're born with it,
K says:
born!?!?!?
Pride, will hurt you says:
so I'll just learn to accept it
Pride, will hurt you says:
it's life

Jac is dumb. Tsk. She thinks that me speaking in
Ah beng language was NATURAL!? But that really
cracked me up a bit. Thanks for making me smile Jac :)

I was so tired in school. I literally slept at the last meeting.
Then i woke up to do my @#$%^&* journal.
Off to meet Dee with Germaine. I tell you, this two really
can make me laugh continuously. And it's gonna be really
long before I see Dee again.
Thanks for the company Dee and Germaine. It was great.

Tomorrow's a friday and I can hardly wait. Because it is the
last day of the school week. I really need the sleep, my eyebags
are so deep :(
So I'm gonna sleep soon. I think.

I wish I can say so much more,
But you're stopping me.

Goodnight.

2007-05-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

Okay, i hear some people asking me to update.

Howie's party was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! It was so funny :)
I managed to catch up with them since i missed out so much,
so I'm glad that they're doing fine in school. So after the party,
we went to holland and have some drinks and we talk for a bit.
:) The company was great!

So school has been rather hectic for me due to the fact that i
have to rush presentation everyday. Not forgetting, I'm always the one
who does almost all the work. But nonetheless, I love my classmates.
Some to be specific. And after school, ill be rushing out my stupid
journal, oh that's my boring life.

Sometimes, I want to be the person you all want me to be.
Nice, caring, a good listener and whatever that is all cliche.
But I know I can't be as good as how all of you want me to be,
or rather myself. I really want to be there for you guys even
when you call me at 3 am in the morning. I can't help but
feel that I'm just not good enough, or maybe im not trying
hard enough? I'm sorry that I've inflict so much hurt in all
of you who cared but this was never myself. I want to be happy,
I want to hear sad songs and not be depressed. I want to be myself
and not what I am now. Cause one thing for sure is that I'm not
able to face reality, I'm not able to face the fact that I'm losing
my shine.

Don't worry, this will not be for long. I still love you people
wholeheartedly. When I'm back, I hope I'll still be treated the
same. You know I can't do without any of you and it already
killed me for the fact that i told you guys whatever I wanna say.

Don't fucking make use of me,
I won't be fooled twice.

If you're bringing me back to where i started,
then I'm telling you that i will let this go.

okay, goodbye i'm going to sleep,
i've got a test tomorrow.

2007-05-06T03:06:00.000+08:00

i am forgotten.

2007-05-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

there is something that i dont understand.
do you miss someone you barely know and not
miss someone you know for so long?

hello life, if this is you(life) i am living for,
then i rather my mum not give birth to me.

ok sounds really emo, but im NOT.
on a random note,
if i were to die soon/one day, will you cry
because you miss me or will you cry because
you didnt treasure me enough? OR you wont
cry at all?